<-- My new dress! It was an early Christmas present from my Mom :-)

Today is my Friday cheat day. I have not exercised but I did dance today. I wouldn’t call it a work out but I did get my heart beat going! I had green tea with lemon first thing this morning and am half way through my water jug. Yesterday I ended up having 6 cups of green tea! Today I have only had 2 cups. I had coffee after my tea this morning and missed breakfast. My Mom and I went out for lunch. I drank water and had a small salad with fish & French fries. I had a can of Healthy Choice soup for dinner. The split pea kind is so satisfying! Healthy Choice soups are on sale this week for 88 cents a can. I went and got about 20 of them today lol. I got half split pea and the other half is chicken dumpling; the 2 best kinds! 88 cents is a good deal because usually they are like $3 something a can and when they go on sale it’s usually 2 for $4. My receipt said I saved $50! I am going to pick up some more tomorrow along with a few other things. It’s pretty tight right now with Christmas coming up so I’ll be eating soup for a while! I am going to also pick up a couple loafs of wheat bread and jam because I am going to start to have toast with jam for breakfast. I don’t know why I haven’t done that before. For some reason I have been stuck in the mindset that I can only have oatmeal, cereal or eggs and toast for breakfast. lol 

I have been thinking on moving my treadmill upstairs from the basement. The environment is so much nicer up here than down there. I think I could get myself to work out better if I had it somewhere where I can watch TV or listen to music on our surround sound vs. our crappy boom box. The only thing is I don’t know where I could fit it up here. It doesn’t fold up or anything and it’s not the prettiest looking ha-ha. I will figure it out!

<-- My daily essentials!!! My 75oz jug of water, green tea & apple cider vinegar tablets.

I hope you guys like the new header! I thought some color would be nice.

I had green tea with lemon first thing this morning. After I had that I had to have my cup of coffee lol. I love my coffee. When I first started this journey I gave it up all together and drank only green tea but I somehow have gotten back on the coffee bandwagon. I drink it straight so it is like 0 calories. They say if you drink too much coffee it leads to stress and stress can lead to weight gain. Once I run out again I will probably go back to just green tea and have coffee as a treat every now and then. Right now I am on my 2nd cup of green tea and I hope to at least have 3 more cups before the day is over.

I am finally feeling somewhat up-beat and excited again about weight loss. I am not going to weigh myself this Friday due to my monthly visit so I will weigh in next Friday December 7th. I like to skip weeks like these; may be mind over matter but I want the most accurate reading without potential bloating/water weight getting in the way.

I just got done working out to Richard Simmons again! It feels really good to have gotten it out of the way for the day. I didn’t finish the 80 minutes but I worked up a sweat and I did get farther than I did yesterday! I can’t even tell you guys how much better I am feeling. Exercising really does solve a lot of problems. For me it clears my head and makes me feel good about myself. It makes me feel healthier and motivates me to do better. Too bad it’s one of those things I have to force myself to do anymore. I am hoping to get back to the way I was when I just did it without complaining!

I had a late breakfast and will have left over stir-fry for dinner.

I got the tunes cranked and plan to dance the rest of the day away! I am feeling back to myself.

Abeep abeep aboop a beep that's all folks! ......Until tomorrow :-)

I worked out to Richard Simmons today; sweating to the oldies 2! I have his whole collection and this was the first time I did this particular workout video. It’s about 80 minutes. I quit about half way in. It’s hard to get into it when I start out with the wrong attitude but I do feel  a little bit better from the little bit that I did. I am hoping tomorrow will be better and I will complete the whole thing. It is going to be a long winter. I could really use some spring/summer! Even though I have weights/weight bench and a treadmill in my basement; that routine can get pretty old. I hope to spice it up and do different Richard Simmons videos/basement work outs. I don’t see myself bundling up to go walk in the snow and I do not do any winter activities. Sometimes I wonder why I live here! I like it to snow only on Christmas otherwise it can go to the North Pole for the rest of the year!!!!!

I got up this morning and had a cup of coffee and made 2 scrambled eggs with wheat toast. I am going to go grocery shopping this Saturday. My kitchen is looking pretty bare! Right now I am drinking green tea with lemon juice. I got a bottle of the concentrated lemon juice. I know it’s not as good as using a fresh squeezed lemon but lemons aren’t cheap especially if you are going to use them everyday. I am hoping to get back into the swing of using lemon juice. I plan on cutting back coffee again and drinking green tea with lemon first thing in the morning like I used to. I have read numerous pros and cons online about the benefits of using real lemon juice vs. concentrate and from what I got it has the same effect but you lose certain nutrients, etc. I would like fresh but I had to compromise $$$. My Mom brought over some broccoli, an onion and thin breakfast steaks so I will be having a stir fry for dinner. I missed lunch today and have not snacked on anything. I still have been taking my apple cider vinegar tablets about twice a day.

Day #2 with no facebook is going pretty well. My shakes and jitters ended late last night, LOL JK. It is amazing on how you can get sucked in to those kinds of things! I feel so much better without it. Some will understand while others wont but I just wasted way too much time on it.

Until tomorrow :-)

I can’t really put into words on how I have been feeling lately. I have been going through a weird phase. I have lost my way with my weight-loss and am having a hard time trying to “feel” back on track. I have been slacking really badly on my exercising and on my control to not eat crap. I haven’t exceeded calorie intakes; I just have been making poor choices. I have had that “screw it” attitude. 

I wanted to start to update my blog only once a week but I think I am going to go back to everyday or at least try to update everyday again. I took a little break and miss it. I deleted my facebook yesterday or “deactivated” it. I couldn’t figure out how to delete it permanently. So far I have been having a hard time getting used to not checking it every 2 seconds so I will invest my time on here. I don’t miss it; it’s just hard to break the habit. I don’t have plans to ever re-activate it. My blog will now be my means of internet fun.

So to start off my new outlook on things I have re-vamped my site here. I like it better. It’s nice to look at a different layout. It may not be much to look at but I think it’s easier to navigate. If any of you have problems; please let me know!

This morning I had my cup of coffee. I have really been slacking on eating breakfast. It has always been hard for me to eat within the 1st hour I get up in the morning. I had 2 eggs and toast about 2 hours after I woke up. I was doing so well with eating breakfast right away, drinking my green tea, eating healthy and being so concerned with what I put in my mouth that if you were to look at my routine now you would wonder what happened. I think I lost my excitement or my thrill for this process. I need to get that back otherwise I will never succeed or reach my ultimate goal. Part of me thinks I am scared. I am starting to really get into a stage in my weight-loss where I am not comfortable with myself. I am so used to being overweight that the thought of becoming smaller is terrifying. I know weird right? I never thought I’d have this feeling after losing almost 80 pounds. No one wants to be fat but when it has been all you have known, it’s hard to adjust. I have built up this wall that is preventing me from moving forward and I need to start knocking that sucker down.

After some thought I have decided I will be taking a break from blogging and will now only be updating once a week. I will write a new post every Friday. 

See you then :-)

It doesn't feel like Friday! Michael has a 4 day weekend and to start it off he woke up sick yesterday morning with a nasty cold; go figure!

 I had a cup of coffee and some left over cold turkey on wheat bread. I missed lunch and for dinner I made a cold turkey salad and had that on wheat bread. I am almost through my water jug and have not had any green tea today. I also have not exercised. I know I should. Ugh....

The next time I will weigh in will be next Friday. I hope by then I will hav
gotten rid of these 4 extra pounds I gained so I can go back to saying that I
have lost 80. I could have already lost it but i'm going to wait until next
Friday.

Late last night when I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep I remembered that I had forgotten to write a blog for yesterday! I had a photoshoot and I was so busy getting food ready for Thanksgiving/cleaning that I completely spaced it off. 

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving and am thankful for many things! I got to visit with my Grandpa and he is just thrilled with my weight-loss.

I took today as a cheat day. We ate dinner at my Moms and I had the works. Turkey, mashed potatoes, gravy, croissant, corn and stuffing! It was all so good and I am sure I will be dreaming about it until next year. That is the only meal I ate today. I think I will be stuffed until next week LOL. 
 
I have not weighed myself since I have gained 4 pounds. I have been trying to stay active and exercise at least every other day. I did Richard Simmons yesterday and the day before that I went for a 2 mile walk and also did Richard Simmons. I hate having to lose these 4 pounds all over again. I am hoping that it was mostly water weight!! We will see when I weigh in next. I still have yet to decided when that will be.

Happy Thanksgiving and I hope you all had a great day! :-)

Until tomorrow...

I’m sitting here drinking my coffee getting myself all hyped up again about dieting/exercise. I have put off weighing myself for about a week now and I weighed in this morning. I am not happy but I can’t say I wasn’t expecting it. I could have gone another week without weighing myself because what I don’t know won’t hurt me right? Right... I had my fun and it is time to get back to business. Oh yeah; I have gained 4 pounds. 

So here I am sitting here contemplating on what to do next. I know I can say I need to get back into the swing of things  a million times but none of it will ever benefit me if I never do it; lol. After I post this I am going to hop in the shower and walk to and from my Moms. Later on I WILL DO RICHARD SIMMONS. It has been a while so I know I will be rusty. It’s amazing how it can all go down the crapper so fast when you just give up for a week. I am not as flexible since I haven’t been stretching and I can feel my body stiffing up again. I am ashamed I have let myself/journey go for this short period of time but I have no excuses. All what I can do now is try to get back on track.

I got up this morning and had a cup of coffee with 2 eggs and 2 slices of wheat toast. I have yet to start on my water jug but I will and I plan to have at least 3 cups of green tea today. I will probably have an egg salad sandwich for lunch and then one for dinner because I still have a bunch left over. I think I will probably end up throwing a lot of it out because I can’t eat it all and Michael HATES onions, green pepper, miracle whip, mustard, eggs, pickles, celery; just about everything I put in it. Talk about picky!

Until tomorrow…

Picture below: They all weigh 154. Everyone carries weight differently. I need to remember this and stop comparing myself to others.

I have been so out of whack with my routine. I don't have too much to write
about because I have been making excuses to not work out. I don't know if i'm afraid to keep moving forward or what but I need to get over it and proceed. At this point I think it is out of my control. Everything I have done and the habits I have changed help me on a daily basis to get to where I want to be. Exercising is just a bonus but I need to regularly do it for myself. I am thinking that maybe
If I make a new work out schedule I can stick with it. Instead of dreading to
exercise every day I could exercise for an hour one day and then take off the
next. I can be so stubborn sometimes but i'm working on it!

I have had about half of my water jug today and 1 cup of coffee. I had a lean pocket for breakfast and an egg salad sandwich for lunch. I made some baked tortilla chips again for a snack and had 1 piece of Michaels pizza he had for dinner. I still have yet to eat dinner but i'm not that hungry. I will probably make some baked sweet potato fries and call it good. What would I do without sweet potatoes!!!! They have become my FAVORITE!

I had a late breakfast/early lunch of a baked pork loin fillet with baked sweet potato fries. I made egg salad but have not had any yet. I will have a sandwich for dinner. I made too much so I think I’ll be eating egg salad sandwiches for the next couple of day’s lol. I bought cayenne pepper at the store yesterday because they say that boosts your metabolism so I will start using that as my pepper from now on. It packs a little heat! I am half way through my water jug and had a cup of coffee earlier. I haven’t had green tea. I have to get back on that. I used to be so good and drinking at least 5 cups a day. I used to be so good at writing more than just 1 paragraph on my blogs too! I don't know what my problem has been latley.