Entry 359: Past, Present & Future
I have been kicking some butt! I brewed and drank a whole pot of green tea earlier and am done with my water jug. I also drank a whole pot of coffee today, is that bad? It's my coffee cup I tell ya! It's my favorite one and it holds a lot.
I don't have any more bananas and I have been skipping breakfast these past couple of days. Last night I did an awesome workout. I didn't set my alarm and by the time I went back upstairs over an hour had passed! I really got swept away in the music that I was listening too. I did my elliptical, some weights, squats, leg lifts & crunches. Not to mention my dirty dancing in between LOL - I also did some neck stretches to help get rid of my chin fat! I feel so good. I am going to do another workout after I post this.
I can't believe Saturday is the day I am going to go dress shopping! I seems like I just made the appointment yesterday.
I went through one of my back-up hard drives and found some more pictures of me when I was at my biggest. I never thought I'd get excited to see a fat picture of myself but I was. When I started putting together before and after pictures I found it very had to find a bigger picture of myself because usually they were the first to get deleted. Looking at them now motivates me so much. I sent a couple I found to my Mom and she cannot believe that was me! She said she can't even picture me like that anymore & I can't either. I look at them now and all what I see is sadness and insecurity in my eyes along with a broken smile.
To me the picture below is like night & Day. I can't wait to see what the future has in store for me.
Entry 358: Slowly but Surely
Last night I talked with a microphone in front of a crowd of people about my weight-loss. I was 1 of 3 speakers at the event called Total Woman by NORTHSTAR Health System. I was extremely nervous but near the end I loosened up. The first speaker talked about Tai Chi and did a demonstration & the second one talked about nutrition. I really enjoyed myself and am flattered I was asked to talk at such a thing!
I still have 50 more pounds I would like to lose before my wedding. Even though its months away I feel like I am running out of time! Not only in weigh-loss but with my planning as well! I have been crazy busy lately with other things and I have been putting off other parts of the wedding. Also everything is so expensive! I can only move as fast as my paychecks come – lol – Slowly but surely I am getting things done 1 step at a time. I know it will all come together & I need to remember not to stress so much because after all it is a happy time!
I haven’t worked out yet but the night is still young. I have been eating a banana for breakfast every morning and drinking over 75oz of water a day. I could be doing better with my green tea but it’s hard to do it when I drink so much water lol – I also have 2 black cups of coffee in the morning. 1 on the way to work and then another when I get to the office. I think I’ll do better with my green tea if I make it in big batches and keep it in the fridge. I am not sure if that would affect its…ahhh… purpose…or goodness? I can’t think of the word right now but you guys know what I mean! I hope – lol – My brain has been on vacation today!
Any who, I hope you all have a great weekend & stay positive my friends :-)
Well my 2-week slim down has begun! I finally made an appointment to go wedding dress shopping February 1st! I know I will not be the size I want to be trying on dresses but at least I will be feeling good. I hope to lose a good amount in these next couple of weeks. I am in the mode and am ready to go about this full force! I have been keeping up with things and working out but now I'm going to pick it up a couple more notches. I really hope I find a keeper. I want Michaels jaw to drop when I walk down the aisle.
So not only am I going to work out every day I will drink at least 75 ounces or more of water, think positively, drink my lemon water in the morning & stick to a strict 1,200 calorie lean and green diet. I also need to order some more apple cider vinegar tablets. I have been out of them for quite some time now. I hope to kick so much butt in these next 2 weeks that nothing will be able to stop me until the big day! (Which is just 153 days away!)
I went grocery shopping on Friday and got a head of lettuce, baby carrots, yogurt, bananas, lean cuisines, pork loin cutlets, eggs, wheat bread, etc. I made egg salad and that is what I plan on having for the next couple of days for lunch or dinner on wheat bread. I forgot to mention in my last posting, I have recently come across a couple of food disappointments. I tried coffee flavored yogurt. It was disgusting! I like coffee flavored stuff but the yogurt was just nasty. Imagine having a cup of coffee sit out for a month with creamer in it and then take a swig. YUCK! Also I got a bag of that Special K granola and that tastes like cardboard. Not even worth the calories to me.
I just got done with my workout for today not too long ago. I kicked butt on the elliptical and then did some weight lifting, squats and stomach crunches. I feel great and I am also over with drinking 2 of my 75 ounce jugs of water.
I need to get this tank for when I work out! LOL
I was asked to talk at this event (flyer below) about my weight-loss. I am a little nervous to talk in front of people but I am more excited & flattered!
<-- Call me crazy but it did. I can't even begin to describe to you how much a seriously positive attitude can change your life. I know I probably look like one of those looney people who seem to be high on life all the time but to me it's better to deal with your problems in a positive way than in a negative one, no matter what the circumstance. Sometimes it's hard to get yourself in the right mindset but once you are there, everything seems to be OK. I would rather waste my days thinking of reasons and things I should be grateful for vs. thinking of how things could go from bad to worse. Having a positive attitude to me is almost like wearing a bullet proof vest. I am shielded from life's curve balls and have become strong enough to overcome them. It has changed my life; it is what got me from 338 pounds to 238 pounds. If I didn't have that, I would still be feeling helpless, useless and in the pits with 100 pounds on top of it, maybe more. So the next time something negative happens to you, try to flip it in to a positive. What could it hurt? Negativity will only bring you further down.
On another note, I have been doing great. I have been working out and watching what I eat. I also have been making sure I drink at least if not more than 1 of my jugs of water a day. I know the whole water drinking thing is a myth to some people but since I have been drinking about 2 jugs of my water a day it has really kept my weight down. I feel great too! I have been getting that "lighter than air" feeling and I LOVE IT. It just motivates me to do better and better. Once I get a taste of the sweet stuff it keeps me coming back for more.
I have been watching my calories and have been trying to back on the green tea wagon. I don't know where I fell off with that but I'm hopping back on! Same goes for my lemon water.
I wasn't going to dye my hair but I just couldn't stand it anymore. The bottom of my hair was lighter than the top because of an old bleach job I had done. I wanted to stay all natural for my wedding this June but this is still pretty close. I just dyed most of my bottom half to match my roots. I have an appointment to get my hair trimmed on the 22nd. I don't think I'm going to cut too much off, probably just a couple of inches.
I still have to go wedding dress shopping but I am waiting to get some monies together. I hope I find a dress close to one in a picture I found online. I also want to lose some more weight before I go shopping. It's hard because I know I am going to be losing more weight before the big day, I just don't know how much so picking out and sizing a dress for me is going to be a bit complicated.
I have finally gotten most of my wedding invitations addressed and wax sealed; I just need to ship them out! That was a huge thing I was dreading and it finally is off my chest! Now I can concentrate on other things. I am so overwhelmed but I know it will all work out in the end. Whether I get married in a garbage bag or not, LOL - The good thing is, I have a venue locked down, a photographer set & a DJ figured out. I am getting so excited!
My serious look, HAHA - I have been in love with this "TOPSTYLER" hair clamp ceramic hair curler thing that I got! I have seen them on TV and have wanted one forever. I FREAKED when I found one at Dollar General for only $20! I don't think I will ever use a curling iron again.
Entry 355: Dr. Oz Update
Well, after a few contact attempts inquiring about an air date/time I have received an e-mail back from the Dr. Oz show.
I am bummed but I can only hope they will use me in the future! I would be lying if I said I wasn't partially devastated but I have to think positive and you never know what the future holds. They are keeping my license release on file and to me that is still pretty cool just to be discovered by the producers of a show like that, whether they end up using me in the future or not.
I just thought I would update you guys on the latest and if they were to contact me again, you guys will be the first to know. Thank you all for your support and for getting excited with me. It means more than you know!
Entry 354: Howdy!
Hello! I am just checking in. Not too much new here.
I hope everyone enjoyed their Holidays. My Christmas was good. I got some things I was not expecting but mostly I enjoyed watching everyone else open their gifts! My New Year's was boring. I was in bed by 8 and set my alarm for 11 so I wouldn't miss it. I finally got downstairs and watched the ball drop they had on TV at midnight and went straight back up to bed at 12:03. I had anticipated my night going differently but I just could not keep my eyes open. I even bought some moonshine to ring in the New Year and I didn't touch a drop!
Things are going "OK" on the weight-loss front. I am at a standstill right now. I am trying to get myself back in the swing of things. Since the Holidays I have become a little lazy and have been putting off my workouts. I'm crackin' the whip and on Monday I am getting back into things full force. Why Monday you ask? I don't really know, it just seems like a good day to me.
I still have heard nothing from the Dr.Oz Show. I am starting to get discouraged but am hoping things are still in the works! After all they wouldn't have had me sign a release form for nothing, right? I will let you guys know as soon as I hear anything.
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.