Menu
Marilyn Manfrom Photography
  • Home
  • Marilyn
  • Contact
  • Home
  • Marilyn
  • Contact

Entry 337: I don't know what to say

10/6/2013

3 Comments

 
Picture
I have no idea what to say nor do I have any excuses for leaving you guys hanging this long. It's pure negligence! I have veered off course pretty bad and have been trying to figure out ways to attack the situation of getting myself back on track (once again). I have not blogged just for the reason of not wanting to confront what is going on. This is so stinkin' hard! I have not stepped on the scale but I know I have been packing on the pounds. If you have come to get motivation from me today, it's not here!

I have become lazy and have been indulgent in the things that I have tried so hard to avoid.
 
I have come to ignore the elephant in the room and I need to get back down to earth. I need to face the reality that I am gaining weight. I can feel it in my face, I can feel my clothes fitting tighter, I can feel I am not the same.........mentally & physically.

I need to start making better choices. I cannot let myself go any further backwards. I have become oblivious to the old habits that I have picked back up. I do realize now that I am an emotional eater. I have been down in the dumps for veering off course..... disappointed in myself... angry.... and for that I have been shoving down those feelings with food. Eating the wrong things then makes me lethargic and from there I have no energy nor the mood I need to get motivated/stay positive. It has just avalanched into something ugly.

Right now I am trying to climb my way out of this hole that I have let myself fall into. I need to get my mind where it needs to be. I need to not to pity myself but to go back to seeing the positive side of things.

Blogging about it: STEP ONE

3 Comments
    Picture
    My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.

    My Story
    Pictures


    Archives

    February 2016
    January 2016
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    March 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013
    June 2013
    May 2013
    April 2013
    March 2013
    February 2013
    January 2013
    December 2012
    November 2012
    October 2012
    September 2012
    August 2012
    July 2012
    June 2012
    May 2012

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.