Entry 5: Large and in charge!

I finally got some healthy foods! I am so happy to have some good options. I had a banana for breakfast and a lean cuisine for dinner. I made it a point to set the fork down after every bite and take my time as well as taking a drink of water between each bite. I got so full! I was amazed. I never thought a lean cuisine would have filled me up but it did. I even burped after like I just ate Thanksgiving. I am going to go down in the basement and do some exercise bike/treadmill in a little while.

I don’t have much to say today. I cleaned the house, stuck to my routine and thought about my future. I am such a day dreamer! I can’t wait to be able to wear clothes that aren’t XXXXL. I will really be able to let my style shine. You have no idea how hard it is to find cute plus size clothing! If you do find something cute it costs an arm and a leg because of all the excess fabric used. I am so done with being fat!!!! I never understood why I never got motivated to do this seriously before. I was always looking for someone else to be serious about it for me. No one can take me serious if I’m not!

I started a calendar thing on my dry erase board. It gives me something to cross of every day and it hangs to remind/motivate! I want to print up some motivational quotes/sayings and post them ALL over my house. I need to be slapped with this in my face every day! I don’t want to let myself down ever again. I need to learn to not get discouraged and to just keep on, keeping on!

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