Entry 97: Confessions...

Alright; I’m cracking my knuckles and stretching my neck side to side… Here we go!

I don’t know WHAT to think anymore!!!! Void my post I wrote the day before yesterday. Well to a point. I have some confessions that I need to make!

I wasn’t going to say any of this but it has been weighing on my mind; for I feel hypocritical.

For starters; on Friday I went to Iron Mountain with my Mom and my Grandpa and I cheated like I said I wouldn’t. We ate at Holiday Kitchen and I had a fish fry. It came with a side of fries, 3 fried cod nuggets, coleslaw and a piece of rye bread. I gave half of my bread to my Grandpa and the coleslaw wasn’t that great so I didn’t eat it. I sure downed those fries and fish though! I used ketchup and drank water. I also didn’t work out that day. I feel kind of hypocritical for Friday’s post that I was talking about stepping up my game and in the end I didn’t do a darn thing right that day. BUT get this; I woke up on Saturday morning and I had lost 1 pound! WHAT?! So yesterday I was at 289 and -49 pounds.

I am weighing myself everyday again. Only for a little while until I feel comfortable enough to only do it once a week.

Second confession: Yesterday I didn’t work out either. I ate my normal meals and then there was a street dance down town for rodeo weekend. I ended up going and I drank beer all night long. I don’t drink often; maybe twice a year. I got pretty tipsy. I had 4 beers before I left the house (I got picked up by a friend and DID NOT drive). When I got there they had cups of beer for sale. In the end I figured I had about 8 beers all together. WAY too much! Michael showed up at the street dance a little after I got there and I went home with him around 2am. I had fun but being that drunk made me realize how much I hate the feeling after the parties over! …NOW; get this… I weighed myself this morning and I am at 285! WHAT?! I am so confused! This process REALLY IS A ROLLER COASTER! I have come to terms that I cannot predict today from the next. Oddly enough now I can officially say I am -53 pounds! I have FINALLY reached the -50 mark! It’s about cotton picking time.

None of this means I am going to go drink every night, cheat everyday and stop working out lol. Once Monday hits I’m back to my walks or working out once a day; maybe twice a day on the days that I feel good. Today I am a little too under the weather to concentrate on working out.

There it is. My slate is wiped clean!