<-- How am I supposed to lose any weight when my Mom keeps buying me this kind of silverware?! LOL
I have been OK - I have not been weighing myself so I cannot tell you if I have lost any more weight but I have been trying to stay strong with healthier eating habits and just simply trying to live a better life.
I feel as if I am at a crossroads right now. Part of me wants one thing and then the other part of me wants another. I have dreams for a career but also have dreams of building a family. I know things will go as they are destined to be but sometimes there are decisions that you need to make that will guide you more in one way than another. It's as if I am waiting for the answer to just drop down from the sky and land right into my lap but in the real world sometimes you have to go and get it. Failure is the fear I am feeling right now & failure should not even be part of my thought process. I know firsthand if you want something bad enough, and work hard to get it; it will come to you at the right time. That is what I somehow lost along the way - my faith in my abilities. I am the first person to tell you to be positive but I have found myself to have such a negative mindset these days. Negativity is a vicious cycle and it will only bring you down. Starting off with the mental state of "This will never happen for me" or "I'm not good enough" will get you NO WHERE. I know how hard it can be sometimes to stay positive but I hear the view from the top is amazing and only you can get yourself there. Anything is possible with the right frame of mind and I need to remind myself of this!
I ran across this quote the other day. Don't be a dream killer!
"Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will."
I can feel summer coming to an end. I hate it! I am not ready for another winter. I want to move somewhere where I don't have to deal with snow. It seems summer goes so fast but winter lingers on. It's like an unwanted visitor that doesn't know their time is up! I still haven't gone to the lake yet! All this time I wasted being a hermit is coming back to me. I feel I need to cram all of my summer dreams into the tail end of it!
On a more positive note I am looking forward to getting out of town for a couple days with Michael in a week or so. For his Birthday this past May I got him tickets to go see a NFL preseason game of his FAVORITE team. This will be a first for him. I swear he is their biggest fan and for him not to have ever seen them play in person is crazy so I made it happen!
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.