Entry 377: #Dream Weaver

I have been doing a lot of soul searching these past couple of weeks. There are desires I have that I feel I have no way of knowing how to reach them or begin to attain. Have you ever wanted something so bad but did not know how to go about even materializing it? Something you feel you are destined for but you just don't know quite yet what it is? That's where I am at right now. But in the process of that, I am trying to focus on getting back to being the motivated, self-assured person that I was. My first step before chasing any of my dreams is to get back in shape. I started off great but have been at a standstill have not lost any more weight. It is discouraging but I know I can be doing more to change my situation.  As anyone knows who has had a bad habit and has tried to quit, it is not easy. When I lost the bulk of my weight before something just clicked for me. Now I think my clickers broken! I feel as if I am left up the creek without a paddle. It is a mental game and I am constantly at war with myself. One of these days I will get it right. But until then, I will blog!

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Michael and I have been doing a lot of bumming lately. It takes everything for us to head back home and not to keep on cruising! We are going to try and do something every weekend. We need to get out and about more otherwise we will get swept up with the same old routine. I know cooler 80 year olds than us!

I have been going for walks. Not so much for the exercise but for the fresh air and to clear my head! The exercise part of it is just a plus lol - I have also got my camera fixed for the time being so I have been going outside and playing around. I have been going snap happy!

I am going to do a basement workout. It has been a long time since I have been on my elliptical or treadmill. I already have the tunes cranked! Sorry it has been a couple of weeks since I have posted. I have been feeling overwhelmed lately!

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This was one of the hardest things I have ever done and every now and then I watch this to remind myself it is and was possible. Lately I have been needing all the motivation I can get!