Entry 362: Determined & Dedicated

My wedding dress has come in and I have made an appointment for alterations in March. I have about 3 weeks to shed a few more pounds until my fitting.

I hate not knowing what the future holds, I wish I was psychic! It would be nice to know what size I'm going to be by June 21st because alterations can get expensive! I keep looking at my before pictures for motivation. Back then I would have never thought I would be able to go in to a bridal store and be able to try on dresses. It is just unreal and sometimes I forget the simple things that I could not do when I was 338 pounds.

The picture up here on the left was taken when I was just starting to lose weight. I was about 30 pounds down then. One day I just looked in the mirror and realized just how big I had gotten. Each day passes and you never notice, you just live with the way you are until you have an epiphany. There comes a point where you are forced to realize how things are and just how far you have let yourself go.

The first few workouts I did I was very angry and I fought through them with that emotion. Facing something that terrifies you head on is hard to do but I had to do it. I could not go on another day living with myself the way I was. I am still overweight but I am much happier.  Before I was just existing now I am truly here; living in the now. So much positivity has come my way over the past couple of years that sometimes I fail to realize that my now "bad days" are minute compared to the challenges that I was once faced with. My mood & my outlook on life has drastically changed. I never will let myself go back to the way I was. I never again want to feel that hopelessness that I once felt, the feeling of being so far away that your goal almost seems unattainable. I have now realized that you can accomplish anything when you truly set your mind to it. That goes for all aspects of life. Determination & dedication will take you places you have never been before.

Wish me luck and success in the next few weeks with my fitness! I am so excited to try on my dress again when I go for my fitting. I can't wait until I can take it home and stare at it LOL

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I had a great hair day yesterday. I am still in love with my TopStyler hair curlers! I have not curled my hair any other way since I got it. I am even tempted to go buy another one as a backup in case I wear this one out lol - Can't beat the price! $20 at Dollar General, I couldn't believe it!