Entry 33: Attitude is everything.

<-- This was my lunch yesterday. Does it get much better than that or what?! I couldn't even finish it. I had 2 of those wraps I made the other day and I cut them in half just for the visual appeal lol. The whole meal was under 500 calories. That's a little more than what my lunch calories normally run but I didn't get to eat breakfast yesterday.

Yesterday was my cheat day and since I have lost 21 pounds I thought I could celebrate. We got Scott's pizza. I figured I can do that at the end of each month IF I do well. It can't hurt to eat like I used to just one day out of the month can it? It's not like I fell off the band wagon or anything. I got a medium veggie pizza with no tomatoes and added pepperoni. I know, not so healthy but I was celebrating. I ended up eating the whole medium pizza. Sick; right?! I just couldn't stop! I asked if they had small pizzas but just my luck they only have mediums and larges. I did feel a little guilty cause I really over indulged but that was the last thing I ate for the day. I didn't eat the crust if that helps anything lol. It felt good chowing down at the time but later on it felt like there was a bowling ball in my stomach. I felt so uncomfortable. It was like I poisoned my body. With me having DOUBLED my calorie intake for the day I decided I would feel a lot better if I worked out and didn't skip it because it was my free day. It wasn't more than a half hour after I ate the pizza that I got up and power walked to my Moms and back. I felt so much better doing that.

I am writing this at my Moms today. I just walked over with Chewie not too long ago and plan to walk back after I finish this. I feel a lot better today. I am in a really good mood! 

Michael went to the grocery store earlier and came back with McDonalds
for himself. That was a little hard for me but not too bad. He walked in the
door and I immediatley saw the red and white bag. I said "is there a french fry
in there?" and even though there was he said "no get outta there" lol. He has
been so good with not letting me cave. I decided then would be a good time to go
for my walk so I woldn't have to sit and watch him eat the one thing I never
could haved lived without before; FRENCH FRIES!! - I ended up taking a big wiff
of the bag and ran out the door. I know i'm crazy but it's hard to explain the
addiction to fast food that I had. 

I saw this idea online where you take marbles and have 2 jars. One jar
represents the pounds you have lost and the other represents the pounds that you still have to loose. I think I am going to do that! I really like that idea.
There was also another idea where you put a dollar in a jar for every time you
work out but sadly I don't have a $1 for every day so the marble idea is much
better lol. I am not really sure what my goal weight is and I know I have to
loose more than 100 pounds to get into the correct BMI for myself but my first
goal is to loose 100 pounds. As of right now I don't have to loose a 100 pounds
anymore but only 79! It's still a lot but at least i'm out of the triple digits! :)

You guys remember how much water I had to drink when I started this? Well it
has gone down quite a bit! The same thing with my BMI. My BMI used to be 52.9
and now I have it down to 49.6! It's awesome to see those numbers go down.

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