I woke up and had my lemon water and then made myself a breakfast sandwich. I have decided I am going to go on an all green diet until I get to 100 pounds down. I am going to eat nothing but salads & veggies for lunch and dinner. I will give myself the exception of my breakfast sandwiches in the morning but that is it! No more fooling around, I'm buckling down and cutting out all the crap. I also just got done working out and I plan to do another workout before bed. I am seriously stepping it up a notch and I told Michael to make sure I exercise again later even if I whine like a little baby. Sometimes a little tough love can go a long way.
I am on my second cup of green tea and am half way through my water jug. I was bad yesterday and skipped working out. I also cheated with food and am mad at myself for doing so when I am so close to my goal. No more funny business; I'm determined. I don't care how bad I get a craving for something I will not touch it. It's all about self control.
MIND > MATTER
Favorite quotes from September 2012:
"Yesterday for me was a Moo-Moo day. I know it was my cheat day but I haven’t done that in a while. It’s where I lounge around all day and never get dressed and just wear my huge Moo-Moo dress. I used to wear it all the time when I was home before because it was easy and I had gotten so large that I had started going more towards the convenience aspect of things rather than the style. I would rather stay home in my moo-moo than to have to get dressed to go somewhere. Now it is really, really huge on me. Maybe yesterday I was feeling nostalgic? Whatever it was I’m glad I snapped out of my funk." -Entry #131, September.08.2012
"I am amazed by the fact that I know how good exercising/walking can make me feel but is sometimes one of the hardest things to get myself to do." -Entry #131, September.08.2012
"There are many things I am realizing I can do now with much less effort. When I was 338 pounds; to tie my shoe I had to sit down, prop my leg up on my other leg and tie my shoe and half of the time it would be tied on the side due to me not being able to reach the lace very well to get the knot in the middle. Today I went to re-tie my shoe and I just shot down and stared straight at my foot and tied my shoe with ease. I barely even had to bend my knee."
"I am overwhelmed by the amount of support from people lately! I am in disbelief at the heartwarming comments and well wishes! It inspires/motivates me and verifies 100% that I am on the right path! I will keep going and I will not quit!"
"For once everything in my life seems to be going my way and it is an AWESOME feeling!!!! I could not be happier with how things are and it is awesome to think that it is just going to keep on getting better and better. Anyone that says losing weight will not change your life is wrong. Being morbidly obese has EVERY worst possible effect on you; your mood and your whole well being! Why I waited so long to do this is beyond me! I FEEL LIKE A WHOLE NEW WOMAN!!!!!!!" -Entry #125, September.09.2012
"I have become a lot more relaxed lately with this whole diet thing. I am not as high strung about it as I used to be and I am ok with that. I needed to be obsessed with it in the beginning to get me going but now it has become so routine that I don’t think I will ever go backwards. I keep a good eye on my weight and am making sure it is still going down. Some weeks are slower than others but I am just taking this process day by day." -Entry #138, September.15.2012
"I last weighed myself at 61 pounds down. Gosh it is so surreal to even say that! 61 pounds is a lot! I tried to pick up a 50 pound weight and literally cried. I couldn’t even pick it up without having to use both hands it was so heavy. To think I used to carry that around with me." -Entry #138, September.15.2012
"I should have known better than to have cheated on Friday and then weigh in on Sunday. Part of me was hoping for a 10 pound weight loss but I knew deep down it wasn’t much! I have acknowledged it and I am going to MOVE ON! I know what I have to do to." -Entry #139, September.16.2012
"I am already on my second cup of green tea and am determined to make today great. I have another busy day but I am going to make the most of it and grab the bull by the horns! There should be no reason why I should be sad. I have lost 64 pounds and just because it may not be going as fast as I’d like it to right now; I just need to be happy with where I am at the moment!"
"I never thought I could do this. To be honest I never thought I'd take it this far. I am so happy I did. I didn't know I had it in me to do this on my own and I can't even imagine where I would be now if I had never started." -Entry #145, September.25.2012
"Being overweight had made me so unknowingly self conscious that it was the base line of all of my decisions and has made me back out of so many golden opportunities. I would have never done something this spontaneous if I was still 338 pounds. I seriously would have missed out on this whole travel experience just because I was too fat." -Entry #145, September.25.2012
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.