Entry 298: Kick-Butt April Day 11

I am having a down day and have been feeling the blues. I just can't seem to get with the program today and snap out of this funk! I know a big part of it is that I have my, oh so lovely monthly visit. You know when Mother Nature supplies women of the world with invisible chainsaws lol... I have been short fused and I can only pray for Michael's survival when he gets home from work, HA! - Just kidding, I'm not THAT bad but I do have a case of the crazies today. I feel so blue and blah! Days like today are when I find it the hardest to stay positive. I know in the past I usually skip weighing in on weeks like this one but I still plan to weigh in tomorrow. I am not aiming too high for a big number.

I woke up and had my lemon water and then made some oatmeal for breakfast. I am on my 4th cup of green tea and have a little over half way to go on my water jug. I was going to make another batch of enchiladas today to use up the extra filling but I have decided not to and am going to either freeze it today or keep eating it on pita bread. That is what I had for lunch today and that is what I will probably have for dinner. I will probably cheat later on with something sweet because well...you women will understand. I worked out last night even though I didn't want to. I mean I reallllly didn't want to. I just can't mess up the routine that I have going for me on the exercise front. Especially now since I am down to the wire and only have 20 more days to drop these last pounds I have to lose. So in saying that I still have plans for a work out today even though I feel like CRAP. For those of you that have recently started reading my blogs; my initial goal was to lose 100 pounds and I am very close but after I lose 100 pounds I still have about 60 more to lose to get to my ULTIMATE goal weight of 170. Right now I weigh 245 and that is from my starting weight of 338 pounds. I feel once I get to 100 pounds down a new chapter of my life will begin and hopefully the rest will be all downhill from there. Ah, who am I kidding? I should have phrased that differently. I know it will not be "all downhill" from there but you guys get what I'm trying to say. I think it will be easier for me, especially with how active I plan to be this summer. I hope for it to just fall off.

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(Even though sometimes it can be hard.)