Entry 295: Kick-Butt April Day 8

I had my lemon water first thing and then made myself a breakfast sandwich. I missed lunch and made a cucumber salad to eat for dinner; which I will eat after I post this. I am on my 5th cup of green tea and still have a ways to go on my water jug. I also still have yet to work out but I will get a good one in before the day is over! :-)

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Favorite quotes from July 2012:

"I can see my feet again! I can’t believe how much smaller my belly has gotten. Michael can finally wrap his arms around me. It’s an amazing feeling!" -Entry #66, July.05.2012

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"I like to go back and read my first few blogs. Those were the best. Sometimes; even though I am only on month 3; I feel I forget some of the reasons why I started this process! Staying positive is key! I need to look at how far I have come; not how far I need to go or when I want to get there. The now is what matters and I will get no where if I keep beating myself up when I should really be proud of where I am at and who I am today. My future self will thank me!"
-Entry #68, July.07.2012

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"I no longer have any “seat belt” fears; meaning not having to worry about getting in someone’s car and not having the seat belt fit! That has happened to me. There was this one time when I actually held it the whole time to make it look like it was buckled! Now I have more room than I need."  -Entry #69, July.08.2012

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"I lost 2 pounds since I weighed myself yesterday morning. How awesome is that?! Sometimes it feels like magic and when I was sleeping the fat fairy came and took it away. I love mornings like the one I had today; where I wake up and FEEL it. I just knew I had lost something!" -Entry #73, July.12.2012

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"After seeing that I have lost 41 pounds; I am amazed. Seriously!!!!! I didn’t even start this until less than 2 ½ months ago. Like; am I really back in the 200’s?? It seems like just yesterday I was crying my eyes out thinking I’d never reach these results. I have exceeded my expectations of this process already. I am starting to become a whole new me. It’s almost like I’m finally coming out of the shock of it all and realizing THIS IS HAPPENING; YOU ARE DOING THIS!!!!" -Entry #73, July.12.2012

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"My Mom and I went shopping and out to eat. It was the first time since I’ve been dieting that I have actually gone into a restaurant and sat down. It was amazing on how much room I have now sitting in a booth. I didn’t notice it until my Mom was like “My gosh Marilyn you have so much room!!!” -Entry #74, July.13.2012

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"It’s an awesome feeling to feel like I have taken off the past 5 years in just 2 ½ months! I feel like I have been walking around my whole life; living a lie. I never thought the way I looked expressed who I was. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t see me. I saw someone very unfamiliar. Everything about this process feels right. This is my mission right now in life and nothing will stop me. I have wanted this for far too long and this fire that is inside me is FLAMING!"
-Entry #79, July.18.2012

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"I stopped weighing myself everyday and am going to go back to just weighing in on Fridays. I have been squirming these past couple of days not knowing but I feel it is for the best! I realized I rather have just 1 down day if I were to not have lost anything than to have a roller coaster of a week by checking every day. I no longer will have expectations; just high hopes! I can’t wait until I can officially say I have lost 50 pounds!!" -Entry #84, July.23.2012

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"I will probably end up ordering pizzas with Michael for my big end of the month cheat day. Nothing else seems worthy enough. I could go to McDonalds and get burgers and fries or those new spicy chicken McBites I have been drooling over or I could go to KFC and get their new chicken bites they have but I don’t think fast food is worth filling my end of the month cheat day. I want to have something good, decadent, rich and homemade. Also; I don’t want to have to make it. I have been craving steak so maybe I’ll get a big steak dinner. Maybe I’ll ask my Mom to make a big nice home-style dinner with a roast or something. OK enough dreaming about my cheat meal. After all this is a WEIGHT LOSS BLOG, HA! Cucumbers, carrots, broccoli, water, lettuce! There… I made up for all the greasy talk." -Entry #84, July.23.2012

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"Part of me feels the same and part of me doesn’t. It’s hard for me to tell because I am me. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself just so I could see what I really looked like to other people."
-Entry #84, July.23.2012

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"I have to say THANK YOU all so, so, so, so much for the loving support! I am flabbergasted at the amount of people who care and are excited for me." -Entry #86, July.26.2012

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"I don’t blame my Mom what so ever. I know she feels partly responsible for me being in this situation. No one knew that I was headed into the obese direction when I was little. I just loved my chips and dip. This may sound completely crazy but I can honestly say I do not regret one single potato chip I have ever eaten. They have gotten me through some tough times."
-Entry #86, July.26.2012

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"I suck at exercising but I do it anyway. You’re looking at a girl who sprained her ankle in middle school just by casually walking down a hallway and falling face first for no reason. I swear gravity hates me!! BUT I have to give myself kudos because I have only fallen once through this process and have yet to get a Charlie horse or pull a muscle!" -Entry #90, July.29.2012

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"I feel pretty safe now that I can say that I am pretty close if not there yet to the middle of my journey! As of Friday I was 2 pounds away from the 50 pound mark. I can’t believe I’m half way to losing 100 pounds. I never thought I’d see the day. I am going to go places; I can just feel it." -Entry #90, July.29.2012

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