I had my lemon water first thing and then made myself a breakfast sandwich. I missed lunch and made a cucumber salad to eat for dinner; which I will eat after I post this. I am on my 5th cup of green tea and still have a ways to go on my water jug. I also still have yet to work out but I will get a good one in before the day is over! :-)
Favorite quotes from July 2012:
"I can see my feet again! I can’t believe how much smaller my belly has gotten. Michael can finally wrap his arms around me. It’s an amazing feeling!" -Entry #66, July.05.2012
"I like to go back and read my first few blogs. Those were the best. Sometimes; even though I am only on month 3; I feel I forget some of the reasons why I started this process! Staying positive is key! I need to look at how far I have come; not how far I need to go or when I want to get there. The now is what matters and I will get no where if I keep beating myself up when I should really be proud of where I am at and who I am today. My future self will thank me!"
"I no longer have any “seat belt” fears; meaning not having to worry about getting in someone’s car and not having the seat belt fit! That has happened to me. There was this one time when I actually held it the whole time to make it look like it was buckled! Now I have more room than I need." -Entry #69, July.08.2012
"I lost 2 pounds since I weighed myself yesterday morning. How awesome is that?! Sometimes it feels like magic and when I was sleeping the fat fairy came and took it away. I love mornings like the one I had today; where I wake up and FEEL it. I just knew I had lost something!" -Entry #73, July.12.2012
"After seeing that I have lost 41 pounds; I am amazed. Seriously!!!!! I didn’t even start this until less than 2 ½ months ago. Like; am I really back in the 200’s?? It seems like just yesterday I was crying my eyes out thinking I’d never reach these results. I have exceeded my expectations of this process already. I am starting to become a whole new me. It’s almost like I’m finally coming out of the shock of it all and realizing THIS IS HAPPENING; YOU ARE DOING THIS!!!!" -Entry #73, July.12.2012
"My Mom and I went shopping and out to eat. It was the first time since I’ve been dieting that I have actually gone into a restaurant and sat down. It was amazing on how much room I have now sitting in a booth. I didn’t notice it until my Mom was like “My gosh Marilyn you have so much room!!!” -Entry #74, July.13.2012
"It’s an awesome feeling to feel like I have taken off the past 5 years in just 2 ½ months! I feel like I have been walking around my whole life; living a lie. I never thought the way I looked expressed who I was. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t see me. I saw someone very unfamiliar. Everything about this process feels right. This is my mission right now in life and nothing will stop me. I have wanted this for far too long and this fire that is inside me is FLAMING!"
"I stopped weighing myself everyday and am going to go back to just weighing in on Fridays. I have been squirming these past couple of days not knowing but I feel it is for the best! I realized I rather have just 1 down day if I were to not have lost anything than to have a roller coaster of a week by checking every day. I no longer will have expectations; just high hopes! I can’t wait until I can officially say I have lost 50 pounds!!" -Entry #84, July.23.2012
"I will probably end up ordering pizzas with Michael for my big end of the month cheat day. Nothing else seems worthy enough. I could go to McDonalds and get burgers and fries or those new spicy chicken McBites I have been drooling over or I could go to KFC and get their new chicken bites they have but I don’t think fast food is worth filling my end of the month cheat day. I want to have something good, decadent, rich and homemade. Also; I don’t want to have to make it. I have been craving steak so maybe I’ll get a big steak dinner. Maybe I’ll ask my Mom to make a big nice home-style dinner with a roast or something. OK enough dreaming about my cheat meal. After all this is a WEIGHT LOSS BLOG, HA! Cucumbers, carrots, broccoli, water, lettuce! There… I made up for all the greasy talk." -Entry #84, July.23.2012
"Part of me feels the same and part of me doesn’t. It’s hard for me to tell because I am me. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself just so I could see what I really looked like to other people."
"I have to say THANK YOU all so, so, so, so much for the loving support! I am flabbergasted at the amount of people who care and are excited for me." -Entry #86, July.26.2012
"I don’t blame my Mom what so ever. I know she feels partly responsible for me being in this situation. No one knew that I was headed into the obese direction when I was little. I just loved my chips and dip. This may sound completely crazy but I can honestly say I do not regret one single potato chip I have ever eaten. They have gotten me through some tough times."
"I suck at exercising but I do it anyway. You’re looking at a girl who sprained her ankle in middle school just by casually walking down a hallway and falling face first for no reason. I swear gravity hates me!! BUT I have to give myself kudos because I have only fallen once through this process and have yet to get a Charlie horse or pull a muscle!" -Entry #90, July.29.2012
"I feel pretty safe now that I can say that I am pretty close if not there yet to the middle of my journey! As of Friday I was 2 pounds away from the 50 pound mark. I can’t believe I’m half way to losing 100 pounds. I never thought I’d see the day. I am going to go places; I can just feel it." -Entry #90, July.29.2012
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.