I missed posting yesterday. It completely skipped my mind and this morning is when I realized: OK - It is time to GET REAL!
I have been slacking and spiraling downwards into my old ways. Today is my turning point and I am going to be going full speed ahead until I reach my goal of losing 100 pounds. I am very close and I will not let myself sabotage it.
I had my lemon water first thing and then made some oatmeal for breakfast. I had 1 cup of coffee and am drinking my 1st cup of green tea today. I will get 5 cups in before the day is done. No more fun and games, it's getting real now. No more excuses, no more "talk". I will make myself workout today. I have specific instructions for Michael to make sure I do or else! lol - I am not sure what I will have for lunch or dinner yet. I also just started on my 75oz water jug not too long ago. No more BS'ing myself or anyone. I am re-building up what I have torn down these past couple of weeks.
On another note I had a great Birthday on Saturday! Minus my junk food hangover I had that night/next day. I slept over at my Moms on Friday and on Saturday we went out for breakfast. This is where my junk food cheat day started. I had 2 eggs, 3 slices of bacon, hash browns mixed with onion, wheat toast with butter, 2 cups of coffee and some orange juice. After breakfast we then went back to her house and my Dad gave me a card with $20 and she got me a small round Birthday cake and some awesome new clothes & a swimsuit! Now... I have never been one to like cake but for some reason this was the best cake I ever had lol. My parents both had a piece and then I took the rest home and Michael and I finished it off! Michael got me a "MyPillow"!!!! (as pictured) - I was so excited because I have wanted one for a while now. It has a built in cooling effect and I used it for the first time last night and slept like a baby! Later on Michael and I ordered Scott's Pizza for dinner. On the way to pick up the pizzas we stopped at his Dads and his Dad got me a gift :-) After his Dads we went and got the pizzas. I ordered a medium "yooper philly" (which is amazing). It has shredded beef, garlic sauce, onion, mushroom and green pepper on it. I ate all but 1 piece because I had to bring one over to my Mom to try because it was so good. When I went to pick up the pizzas I was bought some of their awesome homemade root beer because it was my Birthday. I have not had pop in a long time so I thought what the heck, it's my Birthday lol. I enjoyed every last drop. After eating our pizzas a couple friends texted me to come over to hang out and they brought me a gift :-)
Now if you think my junk food extravaganza ends at pizza... NOPE, later on that night I ate three $1 bags of chips (Cheetos, Sea Salt Kettle Cooked & Cool Ranch Dorito's) AND then I drank 1 can of Pepsi. I felt fine until it was about the time to go to bed. THEN the stomach cramps started. I feel so bad for my body. I got so sick (not puke sick) and it was ONLY because I ate so much junk food. I was up on and off all night until about 3 AM crying. I even drew a hot bath to help with the stomach cramps I was having. I sat in it for about a half hour. ALL because I ate like I used to on my Birthday and paid the price! The mixture of all those foods did not sit well with me. I can't believe that just ONE day of eating like I used to could have rocked the boat that I have on the inside so bad. I have cheated with all of those foods before but one their own (minus the pop). Since I have started my journey, even when I went on vacation I didn't eat as bad as I did on my Birthday. I think my body was in shock. It also didn't help that for the past 2 days I haven't drank green tea, my lemon water, I didn't take my multi-vitamin, I didn't take any apple cider vinegar pills, I didn't blog... nothing!!! Yesterday it literally felt like I was as hung-over as I would have been if I had been out partying all night lol.
SO here I am today, motivated and determined as ever! I am ready to KICK SOME BUTT! This week wont know what hit it, lol.
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.