Entry 217: Looking back

<-- My new background on my phone. I know there shouldn't be a "D" at the end of like but it's there lol.

I got into reading my blog from the beginning last night. I have been meaning to do it for some time now. It is just what I needed. I have no idea where I have lost myself with all of this but I need to remember who I was when I started. Instead of finding myself like I had originally wanted I ended up going further and further away from just that. I don’t know how or why I blocked some things out but once I started losing weight I just got rid of the old me completely. I forgot about the annoying heat rash I had to put up with on my face for over a month and the nasty blisters I got on my feet.  I completely blanked out every hard step it took me to get started. I wrote off everything. It wasn’t easy and I still struggle to this day! I thought I would be further than I am now but somewhere along the line I got off course. For a while it seemed for everything that would go right another thing would go wrong. But after wondering why… I realized for the millionth time it is all about your mindset. You can talk the talk but you have to be able to walk the walk. They say to never look back but in my case I feel it was needed!

I can’t wait for spring/summer. I am starting to think about the garden I would like to have. I always want to do one but am always too late into the season and say “next year!” – I hope to at least grow green beans and tomatoes this year. My Mom has a good garden every summer so I have back-up veggies to pick if mine don’t go right lol just kidding Mom ;-)

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I had my lemon water first thing this morning, blah blah blah haha. I made myself a cup of coffe and a fried egg sandwich with a sice of american cheese on wheat bread for breakfast. I had a frozen meal for lunch with 2 slices of wheat toast that I baked with garlic. I am going to have a can of Healthy Choice soup with some oyster crackers for dinner. I still have yet to work out today but I have plans to later on. I had a great basement workout last night. I pushed my time to 35 mintues instead of 30.

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