Entry 213: Determined!

<--- I did a great basement workout last night and I taped these motivational sayings on my treadmill. They do help! They will be my trainer barking at me when I want to give up. Today is my 4th day back into the swing of things and you can already tell I have lost weight in my face. Face fat is first to go! I knew I had gained weight over the Holidays because I could not only feel it but also saw my face getting fatter. My face thinning is just proof that what I am doing is working and it also motivates me to keep on, keeping on! Michael can notice too! It is a good feeling. When I was off my diet/exercise I noticed I felt like crap after I would eat like crap. It is amazing on how much your diet/lifestyle can affect your mood/behavior. I saw myself going back to having no confidence and being insecure as ever. I know I have to build back up what I just tore down. I get mad at myself but then I just have to remember I am human and the only thing that matters now is that I am currently headed in the right direction and that I AM EXCITED ABOUT IT. I have not weighed myself since the 2nd and I am not sure when I will weigh in next. I'd like to wait until next Friday but I might not be able to wait that long lol.

I made Michael a pepperoni pizza yesterday for dinner and I wanted a piece so bad but I was tough and stayed strong! I have been doing a great job with not munching AT ALL, staying within my calories and not eating past 7PM. Today I woke up and had my lemon water and then made myself a cup of green tea with oatmeal for breakfast. For lunch I had a turkey sandwich on wheat bread with a pickle, lettuce, american cheese & mustard. For dinner I have plans to make baked sweet potato fries with a baked breaded pork loin. I use a tablespoon of ranch dressing for my sweet potato fries and a tablespoon of barbeque sauce for my pork. I am on my 5th cup of green tea and am half way through my water jug. I have been using a really handy app on my phone for counting my calories and I just saw that I am able to share my chart. I will be posting my calorie charts for each day at the end of each post; even on  my cheat days! The ONLY things I do not document are green tea/water. Speaking of cheat days; I will still have them on Fridays. Today I am not going to have a cheat day because I have not been back into this for a full week yet. I am going to try and pull through as long as I can without a cheat day but by next week I will give myself the option on Friday.

I have plans to do another basement workout tonight. I wanted to get into going ice skating this winter but after looking for my hockey skates and not finding them i'm pretty sure I sold them in one of the rummage sales we have had.

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"The difference between who you are and who you want to be is what you do."