I have just been one big mess. I have come to the realization that I need to start over. My plan is to go back to the beginning and start fresh. I have not weighed myself in a while and I KNOW I gained. My Mom and Michael both have noticed. I have no idea how much but I know I will not be happy. I am going to weigh in tomorrow morning and from there I will be keeping a close eye on my weight and will be doing weekly weigh ins.
Day 1 of 2013 is going good but I am still a little rocky. I have completely thrown all of my routines out of the window these past few months. I am in the process of getting myself back into the swing of things. This morning was hard. I got up and had a cup of coffee. I have not had any green tea today or my lemon water but tomorrow those both will be back in full effect. The only thing I have really kept up with has been my water jug. I started taking my apple cider vinegar tablets again with my meals and also started back on taking my daily Centrum multivitamin. I did not eat breakfast right away and had a hard time getting with the program. I had a late breakfast/lunch of pea soup and for dinner I made some guacamole with tortilla chips. I made Michael a pepperoni pizza and had 2 pieces. I have also had 2 nature valley granola bars and have been snacking on these yogurt covered raisins I got.
My first week back I am focusing on getting myself of a schedule. I need to completely cut out all of my old eating habits that I have gotten back into. Tomorrow I am going to start back on the lemon water first thing in the morning and then I will eat a healthy breakfast right away. I am also going to get back into the habit of using my calorie counter on my phone to keep better track of my daily calories than just in my head. I also am going to drink at least 5 cups of green tea a day.
As for exercise… I still have yet to work out today. I am dreading it because I know it is going to suck. It is almost 6PM and I am having a hard time motivating myself. I want to get back on my schedule with daily exercise. 6 days on - 1 day off.
I need to re-do what I have already done. I have come to terms with this and am going to try to do exactly what I did in the beginning of my journey. Baby steps… It’s like trying to walk up to pet a wild animal; if you move to fast you will spook it! I don’t want that to happen to me because I know if I don’t go at my own pace the stress of trying to get back on track too fast will sabotage me.
It’s like I blinked and the past few months have flown by. I kept making excuses and kept saying I will get back on track next week...tomorrow. Before I knew it; it’s 2013. If I would have just sucked it up and did what I had to do I would be 100 pounds down right now. I need to remember this the next time I want to come up with an excuse.
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.