Entry 210: Happy New Year!
I have just been one big mess. I have come to the realization that I need to start over. My plan is to go back to the beginning and start fresh. I have not weighed myself in a while and I KNOW I gained. My Mom and Michael both have noticed. I have no idea how much but I know I will not be happy. I am going to weigh in tomorrow morning and from there I will be keeping a close eye on my weight and will be doing weekly weigh ins.
Day 1 of 2013 is going good but I am still a little rocky. I have completely thrown all of my routines out of the window these past few months. I am in the process of getting myself back into the swing of things. This morning was hard. I got up and had a cup of coffee. I have not had any green tea today or my lemon water but tomorrow those both will be back in full effect. The only thing I have really kept up with has been my water jug. I started taking my apple cider vinegar tablets again with my meals and also started back on taking my daily Centrum multivitamin. I did not eat breakfast right away and had a hard time getting with the program. I had a late breakfast/lunch of pea soup and for dinner I made some guacamole with tortilla chips. I made Michael a pepperoni pizza and had 2 pieces. I have also had 2 nature valley granola bars and have been snacking on these yogurt covered raisins I got.
My first week back I am focusing on getting myself of a schedule. I need to completely cut out all of my old eating habits that I have gotten back into. Tomorrow I am going to start back on the lemon water first thing in the morning and then I will eat a healthy breakfast right away. I am also going to get back into the habit of using my calorie counter on my phone to keep better track of my daily calories than just in my head. I also am going to drink at least 5 cups of green tea a day.
As for exercise… I still have yet to work out today. I am dreading it because I know it is going to suck. It is almost 6PM and I am having a hard time motivating myself. I want to get back on my schedule with daily exercise. 6 days on - 1 day off.
I need to re-do what I have already done. I have come to terms with this and am going to try to do exactly what I did in the beginning of my journey. Baby steps… It’s like trying to walk up to pet a wild animal; if you move to fast you will spook it! I don’t want that to happen to me because I know if I don’t go at my own pace the stress of trying to get back on track too fast will sabotage me.
It’s like I blinked and the past few months have flown by. I kept making excuses and kept saying I will get back on track next week...tomorrow. Before I knew it; it’s 2013. If I would have just sucked it up and did what I had to do I would be 100 pounds down right now. I need to remember this the next time I want to come up with an excuse.
1/1/2013 10:15:43 am
I am so with you on this!!! :) happy 2013:)
1/2/2013 11:26:35 am
1/2/2013 09:41:30 am
Hey Mar! Don't beat yourself up too much. After all, the holidays are a downfall for all of us who are honest about our battle with weight. I think it takes a superhero to bypass the cookies, munchies, appetizers and drinks.... lol Plus, I know the U.P. winters are no big hooray with all the gray, cold days. I think a ton of people can relate to you at this point in your journey. I do not read any sort of "giving up" into your words, so I am confident you just temporarily fell out of stride and will be back on track in no time at all. Bummer to have to lose some pounds twice, but hey, at least you know you CAN do it!! Cheers to a great 2013, and may all your weight wishes come true.
1/2/2013 11:27:22 am
Thanks Deb :-)
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My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.