Entry 202: Things are looking up.

So I weighed myself this morning in the mindset that I was going to see a number I did not want to see. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I have lost another 3 pounds! 4 more pounds to lose until I will back to negative 80! As of today I am 76 pounds down.

I had warm water with half of a fresh lemon squeezed into it first thing this morning and then I made myself a cup of green tea. I had 2 eggs and 2 slices of wheat toast for breakfast and am currently on my 4th cup of green tea. I am skipping lunch and I am not sure what I will have for dinner. I think it's going to be a cheat day for me. Michael asked to take me out to eat so we will see! We are planning on going to a sit down restaurant or order out Scotts pizza and cozy in. I will not have my Friday cheat day if eating out tonight follows through.

Today I am having one of those days where I can't believe how far I have come. Even with my set-backs I can't help but just sit here and smile. I never thought I would follow through with this process. I can't believe I even topped the -50 mark. Slowly but surely I am getting back on track and hope to be back to my norm as soon as I shake off the rest of that 8 pound gain. I don't think I will feel normal until then! I think part of me feels like I have failed because of the gain and therefore I just went down hill from there (mentally) but I need to remember who I am and why I started this journey. I need to finish what I started. I WILL NOT GIVE UP! It may take some time but I will get to where I want to be. I cannot say I didn't expect a few hiccups along the way and I can say there will probably be more. The bottom line is I KNOW I can get through them and try to be the best I can be. The ONLY one standing in my way is ME.

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