Entry 166: Re-train the brain...

Have you ever had one of those days where you are feeling blue but don’t know why and you know that it is stupid to be sad but you can’t snap out of it?

I am having an off day. I haven’t cheated; I just feel down in the dumps. Part of me knows I should just go down in the basement to workout and take a nice hot shower after to get over it. Its 2:24PM and I’m still not dressed. I wish I felt the way I did a couple months ago. Everything seemed to be going so great. I don’t know what I am missing. This whole week I have been eating within my calories, exercising every day and trying to stay positive. I just wish I would get out of this funk! I go grocery shopping tomorrow so I will see about picking up some fresh healthy foods instead of these processed soups and lean cuisines I have been having. I need to go back to eating fresh, lean and green foods! Whatever is on sale I guess is what I will have to go with.

Yesterday I have officially entered month 7 of my journey. I am not as far as I wanted to be at this point but the good thing is I have no time limit. As long as I don’t give up I will take as long as I need to. I don’t think I will be down 100 pounds by Thanksgiving like I was hoping. I would have to lose 27 pounds in 20 days and I just don’t see that happening.

I weighed myself today and I know I shouldn’t have. I was going to wait until next Saturday due to my monthly visit but curiosity got the best of me. I am still at 265!!! I am getting so sick of seeing that number. I am actually relieved because I know I gained some muscle and I was hoping I wouldn’t hop on the scale and see something over 265. So I must have lost something and gained it back in muscle. I don’t know. I just hope the next time I weigh in (next Saturday) it will say 264 or lower! I will scream if I see 265 one more time after I have been working my butt off. 6 months down, 73 pounds lost…

So far I have had my oatmeal for breakfast with a cup of coffee. I had 2 eggs and wheat toast for lunch and am half way through my water jug. I have not had any green tea yet. I have no idea what I am going to do for dinner. I will probably have a can of healthy choice soup because that is pretty much all I have left besides eggs and toast. I am not sure if I will take today as an off day for working out or not. I really, really don’t feel up to it but I know it might make me feel better. I am just having one of those me against the world kind of days. We will see, I guess you guys will have to wait until tomorrow to find out lol but I did have a great work out last night in the basement after I posted my blog. I did a full 30 minutes and broke my exercise bike for good I think. The pedal has been coming off and it came off again and I can’t get it to stay back on. I had to hop back on the treadmill to finish out my time.

Right now; I need to quit feeling sorry for myself (even though I’m not quite sure what I’m feeling sorry for ha-ha), get up off the couch, put my big girl panties on and grab what’s left of today by the…. well you know lol.

Until tomorrow...