Entry 14: You win some and then you loose some..

Today was rough! I weighed myself like I said I wouldn’t do and the scale said I gained 4 pounds since I upped my calorie intake. This crushed me! Of course I cried and cried some more. I don’t know if it was from the up in my calories or if its water weight from the sodium I’ve been ingesting. This past weekend I craved salt. I ate so many pickles. Even though they say they are only 5 calories for one they are loaded with sodium. My Mom said to not let it get me down and things like this are going to happen through this process. I felt like giving up. It also didn’t help that I didn’t work out last night. Believe it or not; I was so busy yesterday that I didn’t get a chance to do it. It seems like before I knew it was midnight. Today is just one of those days where if anything can go wrong it will. I’m so crabby and disappointed in myself.

I worked out earlier. I think I might again later tonight just to make up for missing yesterday. I need this 4 pound weight gain to inspire me and push myself harder! I need to flip this negative into a positive but its sooo hard!

No more pickles.

Earlier Michael and I took all the dogs to my Moms and we noticed a lady in our yard stealing our lilacs! I was annoyed. Michael wanted to say something but I wouldn't let him. Plus we were at the stop sign with all 4 dogs loaded in car. She must have crossed the road from the Wales Inn apartment building across the highway. I don't mind but I just wish she would have asked. If I see her again I’m going to tell her I don't mind if she takes lilacs but I wish she would ask first and I can cut them off appropriately for her instead of her just ripping them off the tree. Am I being crazy? I don't know but I felt that was very rude!!! I also could have been mad at the fact that she got to my lilacs before I got to!

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