Entry 109: Staying positive!
Well I weighed in this morning and I only have lost 2 pounds for the past 2 weeks. I am happy I lost 2 pounds but wish I could go back to losing 5 pounds a week! Right now after losing over 50 pounds is when my progress is getting slower and slower. It is much harder to drop the weight than it was in the beginning. As of today I am 55 pounds down and weigh 283. It’s a far cry from my 338! I’m getting there and I still feel awesome even after only losing 2 pounds in the past 2 weeks. I thought I would have lost more just by how I have been feeling but I can’t let only losing 2 pounds take that away! I just ended my monthly visit yesterday so I’m thinking that might still have something to do with it? In the end it doesn’t really matter as long as I keep losing and staying positive!
Today is my cheat day. I got a little steak for today that I am going to cook on the grill and I am going to fry up some green pepper, onion and mushrooms to go with it. Michael is having burgers. I don’t plan to work out today but you never know. Lately I have just been getting up and going with no hesitation. I’m pretty pre-programmed now. I have waited so long for it to come to this! Where I just do it and don’t sit and try to talk myself out of it lol. It’s part of me now. I AM AN ACTIVE PERSON!!! Woo!
I’m not sure if I’m going to the fair this weekend anymore or the demo. I was going to cash in cans to go with Michael but we had to cash those in yesterday to go to the grocery store. I have been seriously thinking about getting a job. Michael has been supporting me for the past couple months now. My photography business is pretty slow and things have been pretty tight. I still hope to go to the fair and demo this weekend though! You never know! I may go after you don’t have to pay to get in or go see if my Mom has any cans she wants to get rid of lol.
8/17/2012 04:10:16 pm
Hi Looney! Getting fit is more than just losing weight. And it's not only a matter of stronger muscles either. I see your greatest achievement is in your happiness with yourself. Where you appeared confident before, you were possibly just defensive. Where you were chatty kathy and extroverted before, it was possibly an effort to distract others from identifying you just for your weight alone. Who knows, and at this point, who cares? Right now you are healthy in mind, body and spirit -- something I think we all want in our lives. I can only admire your determination to make the best of your life day by day, step by step. I feel I am on a similar journey now -- trying to live a life without John. I am forced to take a good, close look at myself and make a decision how best to move forward. Life is a gift, and in spite of the many trials we all will continue to face, I can only hope to focus on my own "fitness"-- mind, body and spirit-- so that I can live a life with purpose. Don't forget God in the equation, Mar. After all, from the beginning of time to the end of time, it is only and always all about Him. We are not here to be self serving, but to live out a purpose for which God made us. He made you, me, your mom, each of us in this world and everyone throughout all of time! -- specially and individually. Amazing when ya think about it, hey?? Lots more to come on this sermon (LOL), but I'll spare you for the moment. Just remember to thank God because He is the one giving you that inner drive and desire. Trust me. xoxoxo, - Deb
8/19/2012 08:29:59 am
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My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.