Entry 105: Willpower and determination...

So the fair is in town this weekend… This will be a true test of my will power!!!!! Every year I looked forward to getting my fair food fix. Corn dogs, hot dogs, nachos, elephant ears, lemonade, pizza, cheesy fries; the works… My mouth is drooling just thinking about it but I know it’s not worth it. I will go and just get my fix by taking a sniff of the deep fried air LOL. There is also a demo derby which I plan on going to. I will probably have a few drinks there but I am hoping no where near as much as I had for the street dance a couple weeks ago. Depends on my mood I guess. Michael said he might go so I’m super excited! I can never get him to go out anywhere. We are such homebodies but I had a really good time with him at the street dance. I am leaving a buffer zone just in case. We will see…

Yesterday I got away pretty easy with my post ha-ha. There are just some days where I have nothing to say or if I do it’s the same things I have already said before.  I danced for my workout and I cheated and had a candy bar. I just could not believe the craving I had for chocolate! I am normally not into sweets but there is once in a while where I just have to have it. I got a regular sized 3 musketeers bar. Lately I have been pretty blah; Mother Nature is in town so I haven’t been my motivated uppity self these past few days.

Michaels work schedule is all choppy this week. There are a couple days where he works nights and then the rest are different hours of the day. It sucks but what are you going to do. I have decided the days where he works nights I am not going to wait up for him like I used to. I would like to but I just got back on a normal sleeping schedule and I feel it is necessary to keep it going with this diet.

Pretty soon here I have to go grocery shopping again. My fridge is getting pretty bare. I am now on my back up lean cuisines. When I say backup I mean the gross ones I never want to eat ha-ha! I got up around 9am today and had my green tea right away. In a little bit I am going to go make myself some eggs and toast for breakfast. Some day this week I need to go over to my Moms and pick blackberries. She has a good batch this year but there are not many. There should be enough for me to snack on for a few days. Her raspberries this year were sad! They was very few compared the plethora she usually gets and they tasted like water. I didn’t even bother picking.

I have not been doing my lemon water for quite some time now. I hate it and got sick of waiting for them to go on sale. Maybe one of these days I’ll get back to squeezing a half of a lemon into my morning green tea. Little did I know when I started this I would have to get into a new routine/lifestyle change but it would still be chaotic! Lol- Things are still constantly changing. But I am not complaining. I personally have to have some variety otherwise I get bored with doing the same thing over and over! The 2 key things that I still stick with till this day is drinking over 75 oz of water a day and as many cups of green tea as I can. Some days I only have 2 cups of green tea and other I can have up to 6 or 7!

I calculated my BMI the other day and it has gone down 8.3 points!

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