<-- Between fishing yesterday and cutting the grass today I got some sun! I am going to try to stay nice and tan this summer. When I was younger I was always dark! I hope this burn is the start of a nice summer tan. I am surprised it doesn't hurt at all! Yesterday I skipped working out. I was pretty active the whole day and when I got home I just couldn't do it! I was so hot and tired. Today I almost skipped it again but just a little while ago I walked to my Moms and plan to walk back. I forgot how nice a night time walk can be. It's a little spooky in some spots but I had my Chewie to protect me! lol Today I made Michael a Digorno garlic bread pepperoni pizza. Those used to be my favorite! Him and I would always split one for dinner. I looked at the back of the box today and just 1 half is over 1,000 calories! I could not resist when he was eating it and I had a piece. I know! I know! Spank my hand now! BUT I got so sick afterwards! I guess my body is running on healthy foods now lol.. Getting sick makes it much more easier for next time when I think i'd want a piece!
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<-- Michael and I went fishing today. We caught 6 fish total. All of them were small except Michael got one bigger one. It was a lot of fun and I got to get my tan on! I don't have much to say today. I was pretty busy! I didn't get to eat lunch but I had my wheaties for breakfast and a lean cuisine for dinner with some veggies. I hope I keep up lossing 5 pounds a week! That would be awesome because then i'd loose 100 pounds by September! I am not counting on it because you never know if I am going to have any down weeks but it's another motivator! I am sorry that I am just getting to post this. It is 1am! I tried earlier but my internet was down. <-- I have been using my teeth whiting strips for a little over a week and I already have a whiter smile! I love it. I weighed in today and I am at 312!! I have lost 5 pounds this week. I was not expecting that! I am pretty happy with 5. All together I have lost 26 pounds! Sweet deal. Today is my cheat day. I worked out every day this week and plan on skipping it today. I need a break. My feet and legs are sore! My Mom went to Iron Mountain yesterday and brought back Michael a Little Caesars pizza. I am going to have a slice or 2 or 3 or 4 today when he eats it later lol.. To be honest I probably will have 3 slices. I have arranged my calories today so I can eat some. Knowing me I’ll probably feel guilty after and do something active lol. I didn’t get any sleep last night. Maybe got about 4 hours. Michael didn’t get home from work until 3am and we stayed up until 4am then I had to get up in the morning to start to move rooms at the Windsor Center where I have my photo studio. I can’t wait to sleep in tomorrow! For those of you in Iron River there is free fishing this weekend! Michael and I are thinking about going but not sure yet. He has a gazillion fishing poles from when his Grandpa fixed and made them. I have never caught a fish before. I have come very close but no cigar! I don’t know what I’d do with it if I did catch it. I can’t stand to touch the things but I love the whole fishing experience. <-- I have been having frosted mini wheat’s with skim milk for breakfast lately. You can have 21 pieces and it’s a little over a 100 calories. I added the blueberries. For lunch I had a salad with a macaroni and cheese lean cuisine. For dinner I had a salad with a healthy choice frozen dinner. I realize I stay fuller longer if I have a salad with my meals. They say when dieting to eat a lot of plant based foods. No problem for me! I love my veggies! The baby fawn was gone when my Mom got up this morning. Its Mumma must have come and taken it in the middle of the night. My Mom drove around the area just in case it got up and wandered away or worst case got hit by a car but no sign of it. I have been cleaning ALL day! I am still at it too. I am on a roll. I have been noticing little signs of a small cleft chin. It’s crazy! Its little signs like this that keeps me going! I never knew I had one but I found an old picture where you can see it! I will post the old picture at the end of this. I was craving potato chips and dip last night so bad! I have yet to have a chip. That amazes me because I practically used to live off of chips and dip when I didn’t eat fast food! I have had a couple tortilla chips and a small bag of baked lays but they don’t count. They are no where near what a regular ruffles or lays chip tastes like. My mouth waters just when I think about them! I don’t know if I miss the chips themselves or the process of curling up on the couch with good munchies to watch a good TV show. Chips are something that has always been in my life. They remind me of my childhood. My Dad is a big chip and dip guy so I guess that’s where I got it from. I can’t wait to be where I want to be weight wise then I will be able to have chips again! I know I can have them now just in moderation but I don’t even want to do that. I do not trust myself!!!! Chips will be my reward when I get to were I want to be. It may take a year or two but I need to restrict myself. I have to think of them as something toxic! My Mom was talking to my Grandpa the other day and he said he had seen on Dr.OZ that if you eat a bag of chips everyday you will gain 1 pound a week guaranteed. I could finish off 1 big bag of chips in 2 sittings. That is one way to show myself that I have way more will power than I think I do!!! <-- I got a fortune cookie today at the grocery store. They had a basket full of them for 10 cents a piece. I didn’t eat the cookie but I loved the fortune! Did you know that when you get bananas from the store you should take them all apart when you get home? When you do that they don’t ripen as fast and they will last you a lot longer. I thought that was interesting. This doesn’t have anything to do with weight loss but earlier my Mom had called me because there was a new born baby fawn in her yard! She took pictures and below I had to share. The pictures are too cute. Chewie was scared of it! We are hoping its Mom will come back and get her. She might even stay there and the Mom might come back to feed it but might leave the fawn because it’s most safe where it’s at. We will see! It’s still there. It’s so cute I want it for a pet but don’t want to be cruel. When it grows up and goes on it’s own it will probably get shot first because it would probably walk right up to a hunter. My Mom said it followed her for a little bit in the yard but she doesn’t want to get too close so the fawn doesn’t think she’s its Mom. She read online that they will take very well to humans after they are first born because they don’t know any better. ALSO we thought that you couldn’t touch a fawn because its Mother will disown it but that’s just a myth. After some research we found out that you can touch one and its Mother will still take it in. They only disown their young if it has a defect/etc.. <-- Picture of my dinner I had last night. Boiled Pollock fish with cheese ravioli! The raviolis are from a lean cuisine. The whole meal is 310 calories. The Lean Cuisine cheese ravioli are my favorite! It’s one I know I will always like and will never be disappointed. I could eat it everyday; very good. I feel much better than yesterday. I needed to take some of my own advice: ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING! I think it was a mix of me not eating a good breakfast and not getting enough sleep. This morning I got up and had my green tea with lemon, a banana and some blueberries then for lunch I had a lean cuisine. So far I am feeling great. Last night I worked out for 40 minutes. I am going to try and do an hour a day instead of a half hour. The more I exercise I do the more calories I burn and the more calories I burn the more pounds I lose. Once I bring myself in the basement or start walking there is no going back! It’s just the get up and go that I have a problem with lol.. It has been one of those days for self reflecting. I have been thinking all day about my past, my present & my future. I have been thinking about the people that have been in it, the people that haven’t been in it & the people that I wish still were. I have been feeling bummed out. I don’t know where it’s coming from but I just can’t help but to sit here in self pity. I can’t believe this mess I have gotten myself into. I have never done anything harder in my life than what I am doing now. 23 years of putting all of this weight on and I am hoping to take 100 pounds of it off in 6 months. At the rate I’m going I hope to reach that goal by the end of October. I know, don’t get my hopes up but it keeps me going. I have been walking to my Moms these past few days. I have been taking a new route that is more challenging. Much more scenic too! But today I am going to work out in the basement. Yesterday I was so tired! I didn’t want to do a darn thing. I thought well if I don’t feel like exercising in the basement or walking I’ll go for a bike ride. I almost got more of a workout from that than if I were to have done any of the other options! I walk my bike up hills a lot but I give it my all until I can’t pedal any more. My thighs ached so badly when I got home. Every time I’m walking my bike and a car passes me I almost put my head down in shame lol. I can’t shift gears on my bike so it’s really hard to go up hills. The more I do it, the more I won’t have to walk my bike. If I lose 100 pounds it will put me at 238 pounds. At 238 I would still be considered obese. I will be extremely happy with anything in the 100’s lol. According to my BMI my normal weight would be 155. I don’t know if I want to go down to that. I would be happy with 170 but I wouldn’t be complaining about 155 either! I would still have to lose a little over 160 pounds all together to get to 155. That is a WHOLE person I have to lose! It still seems so far away. So, so, so, so far away :( It makes the 21 pounds I have lost so far seem so insignificant. <-- This was my lunch yesterday. Does it get much better than that or what?! I couldn't even finish it. I had 2 of those wraps I made the other day and I cut them in half just for the visual appeal lol. The whole meal was under 500 calories. That's a little more than what my lunch calories normally run but I didn't get to eat breakfast yesterday. Yesterday was my cheat day and since I have lost 21 pounds I thought I could celebrate. We got Scott's pizza. I figured I can do that at the end of each month IF I do well. It can't hurt to eat like I used to just one day out of the month can it? It's not like I fell off the band wagon or anything. I got a medium veggie pizza with no tomatoes and added pepperoni. I know, not so healthy but I was celebrating. I ended up eating the whole medium pizza. Sick; right?! I just couldn't stop! I asked if they had small pizzas but just my luck they only have mediums and larges. I did feel a little guilty cause I really over indulged but that was the last thing I ate for the day. I didn't eat the crust if that helps anything lol. It felt good chowing down at the time but later on it felt like there was a bowling ball in my stomach. I felt so uncomfortable. It was like I poisoned my body. With me having DOUBLED my calorie intake for the day I decided I would feel a lot better if I worked out and didn't skip it because it was my free day. It wasn't more than a half hour after I ate the pizza that I got up and power walked to my Moms and back. I felt so much better doing that. I am writing this at my Moms today. I just walked over with Chewie not too long ago and plan to walk back after I finish this. I feel a lot better today. I am in a really good mood! Michael went to the grocery store earlier and came back with McDonalds for himself. That was a little hard for me but not too bad. He walked in the door and I immediatley saw the red and white bag. I said "is there a french fry in there?" and even though there was he said "no get outta there" lol. He has been so good with not letting me cave. I decided then would be a good time to go for my walk so I woldn't have to sit and watch him eat the one thing I never could haved lived without before; FRENCH FRIES!! - I ended up taking a big wiff of the bag and ran out the door. I know i'm crazy but it's hard to explain the addiction to fast food that I had. I saw this idea online where you take marbles and have 2 jars. One jar represents the pounds you have lost and the other represents the pounds that you still have to loose. I think I am going to do that! I really like that idea. There was also another idea where you put a dollar in a jar for every time you work out but sadly I don't have a $1 for every day so the marble idea is much better lol. I am not really sure what my goal weight is and I know I have to loose more than 100 pounds to get into the correct BMI for myself but my first goal is to loose 100 pounds. As of right now I don't have to loose a 100 pounds anymore but only 79! It's still a lot but at least i'm out of the triple digits! :) You guys remember how much water I had to drink when I started this? Well it has gone down quite a bit! The same thing with my BMI. My BMI used to be 52.9 and now I have it down to 49.6! It's awesome to see those numbers go down. I weighed in this morning and.... DRUM ROLL PLEASE.... So far I have lost a total of 21 pounds!!!! I think that’s pretty good for one month don’t you? That means I have lost the amount of weight that was on the bottom shelf of that one picture I had posted a while back! (I will re-post picture at bottom of this post) - I am beyond thrilled! I only lost 6 pounds in the past 2 weeks but I guarantee I would have lost more if I wasn’t weight lifting and building muscle. In the beginning I said I was prepared for that hurdle and I was. I am still happy as a clam. My Mom had already ordered me teeth whiting strips for my 20 pound present and I finally got to get them today. It's a 14 day thing and I started with my first strips today. I love her!
The picture below is of my snack I had last night. I think I am going to start having these for lunch! It filled me up and was only 170 calories. I was in a debate between 2 tortilla brands and I ended up getting the kind I have pictured below. I got the one I got because it had a saying on the front about how they were perfect for the serious dieter lol. In the wrap I chopped up lettuce and I added honey ham. I got these little lunch meat portion packs on sale for $1 each! Each pack is 60 calories. I also added one thin line of mustard and peppered it! It was very good! The only downer is the tortillas were a little expensive. They were $5 for 8 but I have wasted my money on much worse lol. Also each tortilla is only 80 calories! |
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.
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