I already got my workout in for today and I just might do another one later. Ah who am I kidding? I probably won't - But I do know I'm going to power clean the house after I post this. I have plans to crank up the tunes and get down to business. I know I can work up a sweat when I get into scrubbing every nook and cranny. Dancing is so much more fun when you have a vacuum and a broom; said no woman ever. I had bought a box of 4 frozen breakfast burritos at the store the other day and I thought I would really like them (and they were only 320 calories). I was wrong. SO, so wrong! I can't even begin to tell you how gross they were! I was surprised because I paid full price for them (which I never do) and they were not on the cheap side. Oh well, on to something else! At least I know for next time. Well I jinxed the weather with my last posting and woke up this morning to it snowing outside! It's not right for it to be snowing when we still have green grass on the ground. It has not been fun watching the colors slowly fade away this fall. Pretty soon it will all be black and white! I told Michael if we were rich I would renovate our backyard in to a bio dome and have an escape all summer long. Heck Pauly Shore and Stephen Baldwin survived in one for an entire year! LOL sNOw FREAKIN' WAY!
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Here we go again! Today I went grocery shopping and bought myself lean cuisines/ healthy choice meals and crackers/ pretzels for snacks. I am starting to get back on track in the food area. I am only eating lean cuisines to get going with better eating habits. I like them because they teach me portion control as well as being lower in calorie than the other choices I would be making at this point. Once I train my brain and stomach to be satisfied after a lean cuisine I will then start prepare my own food. I will then be able to trust myself enough to ration serving sizes and calorie count. It's a baby step but at least it's a step in the right direction! It worked well for me in the past so here goes nothing! We still have some green here in the upper peninsula of Michigan. I hope we don't get snow as early as we did last year. I remember last year there was snow on the ground at our Halloween party! It can hold off a little longer because we are finally able to get our roof re-done and I am hoping we can do it before the snow hits. I am not a cold weather chick AT ALL! I always ask myself why I still live somewhere where the winters can be horrendous. I just can't seem to break the force field that holds me here LOL - Someday I will get away! I have been keeping up with my workout routine and from here on out I will not settle for anything less than RESULTS! Success is a combination of many things. I have to get the potion in motion and set the ingredients just right. I always like to think of my body as a car. You wouldn't go and put sugar in your gas tank now would you? LOL! Like I have said many times; I know what needs to be done I just need to do it to it! I know I will feel a million times better. I have been so stressed out lately and I have finally put my finger on it. I have not been happy with ME. My discouragement has taken over and is affecting my day to day life. It has put a damper on many things I used to enjoy and UN-motivates me to motivate myself. I need to quiet my inner critic and move forward confidently and positively. It is time for things to change. MIND, BODY & SOUL! I am excited to say that I am now www.marilynmanfrom.com - You can still reach my site with the old address as well. You may also notice a few minor changes to the site but after 2 1/2 years an update was needed! I have been using my elliptical/recumbent bike daily. I have been doing 20 minutes on the elliptical and 30 minutes on the recumbent. I love it because I can change the workout level each time I use it so I don't do the same thing over and over but I know I am going to need to spice it up soon. I have been just maintaining my current weight. I am still having issues in the food area! It is so hard to just stop all these bad habits that I have picked back up. I need to be more aware to what I am putting in my body. Lately I seem to say one thing and then do another. I have been waiting for that spark that I had in the beginning. Something just snapped for me then and I was unstoppable. No pizza, fast food or spec of sugar could have stood in my way! I was fed up and am coming close to that feeling again. Enough is enough. Things are getting to Cray-Cray! So in saying that; I have been working on building myself back up. I know I can do this. I will reach my goal. New web address, fresh start! LOL - Whatever works, right? I have been in a baking mood lately. Today I made pumpkin cookies. They are not for me but I can't say I did not try one...or two! I don't like frosting on my cookie so I ate a non-frosted one. I also made Michael brownies. We used to be so good and not keeping stuff like that around but when I get in one of my Suzy homemaker modes I just can't stop. This lifestyle is not going to last for long. I have been getting my crap together these past few days. I have been good and have been making sure to work out every day and am now going to seriously watch my calories. I have gotten too careless with that. It is so easy to skip a workout and has been very hard for me to get down a routine that works with my schedule. Once I give away the cookies and Michael gets rid of the brownies there will be no more of that junk! I am not big on sweets so it is not hard for me to resist; but from here on out, absolutely no more junk. I can't even say that you can have what you want only if you eat in moderation. That just ends up being a lie I tell myself to make it ok. Deep down I know I will go ape on whatever junk food is lying around. It's just the thing I tell myself when I want to cheat without remorse. It has been very hard for me to admit that I have been gaining weight back. It feels better to ignore it and hope it goes away but realistically that isn't going to happen. I can no longer comfort myself with a lie. I am not comfortable in my own skin lately and that is a big indicator to me that I need to get with the program. My problem will not go away and is something I have to deal with head on. I would like to lose 80 more pounds for myself. I know how awesome it would make me feel and less self-conscious. I am also so upset that I did not get to my goal weight for my wedding day but instead I gained weight and crossed my fingers that my dress would fit. I tend to eat under pressure and go for what's easy without thinking about the after math. It seems I got to a certain point with this process and then decided to say screw it! I know it's a lifestyle change and I know I have to re-evaluate my situation. Certain things have to change and I can't focus on the end result. I have to be in the moment and take care of business today, in the now. I need to quit looking back and replaying all the would-a, could-a, should-a's. It doesn't matter how many times it takes to get going: what matters is that you never give up. The past is history & tomorrow is a mystery!Well it happened. The leaves have turned and the geese have flown south! This year the colors are just unbelievable. I can't remember the last time I saw fall colors so vibrant. I went out of town yesterday and went shopping. I got a new coffee pot because a couple of weeks ago I went to run vinegar through mine to clean it and the next thing I heard was a loud pop. My immediate thought was that the glass pot cracked but then when I checked it out it was fine and held water. I then turned around to all of the vinegar leaking out the bottom of the entire unit! & I hate the smell of vinegar so it was my worst nightmare lol - It must have blown a seal because now it's garbage and can't hold any liquid. So long story short, it was so nice to make a whole pot of coffee this morning! I didn't get anything fancy just your good old fashioned Mr. Coffee 12 cupper; that is all I need! I came across a pumpkin stand in someone's yard yesterday on my way out of town. I decided to get mine for the year. I got 4 and I just mainly get them for the seeds. I look forward to making roasted pumpkin seeds every year. It's become a tradition! Not only are they tasty, they are good for you too! Here is how I make mine: Roasted Pumpkin Seeds: First I gut the pumpkin and pick out all the seeds from the mush and put them in a strainer. After I have collected all of the seeds in the strainer I then rinse them with water to get any excess gunk off. From there I lay them out on paper towel and pat them dry. Some of the seeds will stick to paper towel; I just pick off the ones that do. They don't have to be completely dry but the drier the seed the better they are for quicker roasting. I then put the seeds in a bowl and coat them with a couple tablespoons of extra virgin olive oil. I also stir in garlic powder, sea salt and a pinch of black pepper. I lay the seeds on a baking pan in 1 even layer and bake them at 200 degrees for 15 minutes. I then take the seeds out of the oven, stir them around and put them back in at 325 for 15 more minutes. It is so easy to burn them so you have to be very cautious and make sure to keep an eye on them! How do you guys like to roast yours? H A P P Y F A L L !
You guys can beat me up later; I know I have been horrible with posting lately. I made frozen yogurt drops the other day and I thought they turned out pretty good! I am not a huge fan of yogurt to begin with but snacked on these with no problem. I put yogurt in a zip lock bag and cut the tip off the corner and dropped the yogurt on to a pan lined with parchment paper. I froze them and then popped them right off the paper to eat. They reminded me of that old fashioned drop candy! Pinterest win lol Michael and I moved my elliptical/recumbent bike back upstairs from the basement. It was time! (No more excuses!) - I dreaded going down there to work out and it almost seemed easier to not workout when all of my stuff was out of sight. Now I see it every day as a reminder to get my crap together! I am starting a routine where it is the first thing I do when I get home from work. It's the last think I want to do or think about at the end of the day but it needs to be done! I have gotten too far away from my old workout routine. Monday is the first day of autumn. YUCK! I am dreading winter and that just means we are one step closer. I want to move somewhere where it is warm all year round. I am going to be soaking in all the fresh air I can over these next couple of weeks because I have a feeling there will not be many more. Halloween is just around the corner too. I have decided I will not be doing anything for Halloween this year. Usually I go all out with decorations but I am not feeling it. It is so much work and I am still recuperating from our wedding! I was bit by the doodle bug!I have been feeling good these past few days. I went through a lull here with blogging. This Monday I am starting a new approach with my weight-loss. I am going to start off with small goals of losing 10 pounds at a time. I seem to get overwhelmed and crumble under the pressure I put on myself to succeed. I want it all today, now, this second! It is going to take time and I need to remember that it isn't going to all happen overnight. The fair is in town and I am proud of myself that I did not eat any fair food! I usually can't resist a good old corn dog but I made sure not to go there on an empty stomach. Well Michael and I went to that game a couple weeks ago and had a blast! I have never been in the same space with so many other people, it was crazy. Neither of us has ever been to a game before so it was new experience for both of us. I know I got a good workout going up and down the stadiums stairs! I am pretty sure they were made for pure torture. It was pretty cool being at the game in person. It was almost surreal to see all the players! I shared a couple of pictures below: I got my first negative comment the other day on my weight loss video. As much as I can say it didn't bug me, it did. It was a very odd, pick-me-up/bring-me-down type of comment lol - After a few days I only feel sorry for them and their small mind. I am only motivated to argue against but I refuse to waste my time! <-- How am I supposed to lose any weight when my Mom keeps buying me this kind of silverware?! LOL I have been OK - I have not been weighing myself so I cannot tell you if I have lost any more weight but I have been trying to stay strong with healthier eating habits and just simply trying to live a better life. I feel as if I am at a crossroads right now. Part of me wants one thing and then the other part of me wants another. I have dreams for a career but also have dreams of building a family. I know things will go as they are destined to be but sometimes there are decisions that you need to make that will guide you more in one way than another. It's as if I am waiting for the answer to just drop down from the sky and land right into my lap but in the real world sometimes you have to go and get it. Failure is the fear I am feeling right now & failure should not even be part of my thought process. I know firsthand if you want something bad enough, and work hard to get it; it will come to you at the right time. That is what I somehow lost along the way - my faith in my abilities. I am the first person to tell you to be positive but I have found myself to have such a negative mindset these days. Negativity is a vicious cycle and it will only bring you down. Starting off with the mental state of "This will never happen for me" or "I'm not good enough" will get you NO WHERE. I know how hard it can be sometimes to stay positive but I hear the view from the top is amazing and only you can get yourself there. Anything is possible with the right frame of mind and I need to remind myself of this! I ran across this quote the other day. Don't be a dream killer! "Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will." I can feel summer coming to an end. I hate it! I am not ready for another winter. I want to move somewhere where I don't have to deal with snow. It seems summer goes so fast but winter lingers on. It's like an unwanted visitor that doesn't know their time is up! I still haven't gone to the lake yet! All this time I wasted being a hermit is coming back to me. I feel I need to cram all of my summer dreams into the tail end of it! On a more positive note I am looking forward to getting out of town for a couple days with Michael in a week or so. For his Birthday this past May I got him tickets to go see a NFL preseason game of his FAVORITE team. This will be a first for him. I swear he is their biggest fan and for him not to have ever seen them play in person is crazy so I made it happen! I have been doing a lot of soul searching these past couple of weeks. There are desires I have that I feel I have no way of knowing how to reach them or begin to attain. Have you ever wanted something so bad but did not know how to go about even materializing it? Something you feel you are destined for but you just don't know quite yet what it is? That's where I am at right now. But in the process of that, I am trying to focus on getting back to being the motivated, self-assured person that I was. My first step before chasing any of my dreams is to get back in shape. I started off great but have been at a standstill have not lost any more weight. It is discouraging but I know I can be doing more to change my situation. As anyone knows who has had a bad habit and has tried to quit, it is not easy. When I lost the bulk of my weight before something just clicked for me. Now I think my clickers broken! I feel as if I am left up the creek without a paddle. It is a mental game and I am constantly at war with myself. One of these days I will get it right. But until then, I will blog! Michael and I have been doing a lot of bumming lately. It takes everything for us to head back home and not to keep on cruising! We are going to try and do something every weekend. We need to get out and about more otherwise we will get swept up with the same old routine. I know cooler 80 year olds than us! I have been going for walks. Not so much for the exercise but for the fresh air and to clear my head! The exercise part of it is just a plus lol - I have also got my camera fixed for the time being so I have been going outside and playing around. I have been going snap happy! I am going to do a basement workout. It has been a long time since I have been on my elliptical or treadmill. I already have the tunes cranked! Sorry it has been a couple of weeks since I have posted. I have been feeling overwhelmed lately! This was one of the hardest things I have ever done and every now and then I watch this to remind myself it is and was possible. Lately I have been needing all the motivation I can get! Well I didn't end up making asparagus last night but instead decided to make a kebab out of the pork loin I had. It was pretty good! After I post this I am going to make the asparagus for dinner with a piece of fish. I had my lemon water this morning. I went and stocked up because our local grocery store has them on sale this week. I wish there was an easier way to drink it; especially since I am not a huge fan of sour. But I find this is the best and most effective way so I'm sticking to it. I still have yet to start on the green tea again. I don't know what it is but I am dreading it! Maybe I'll look into a tablet form or something. I know I have seen it in the vitamin aisle! I'll have to do my research. Well I'm hungry and it's 6:00PM. I don't like to eat past 7 so I will blog later! |
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.
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