If you re-wind the tapes you will see me at the McDonald’s drive through twice this past weekend. I am ashamed!!!! Now that I have the guts to confess… here it is: On Thursday night I got a bad craving for McDonald’s and I didn’t work out that day either. I figured if I cheated on Thursday night I would have Friday be normal and workout. I didn’t cheat with food on Friday but I also didn’t work out. The second time I had McDonald’s it was after Michael picked me up from the wedding on Saturday. I got a double cheeseburger and a small fry. I went by myself on Thursday night and it took a lot of talking myself into it. Just by that alone I should have known better. I think I sat in the garage for about 15 minutes before I left. After being extremely guilty these past couple days it has set me back. I didn’t work out Sunday or yesterday either. Today I am determined to get back on track.
I weighed myself this morning and I have gained a pound. As of right now I’m 59 pounds down and not 60. I kicked butt today and danced my tail off. I just get lost in the beat and don’t care how dumb I look. Who knows; maybe one day I’ll be a back up dancer with all this practice I’ve been getting LOL. I danced for a straight half hour.
I have been eating normal besides cheating with fast food and the food they had at the wedding on Saturday. (I had a spoonful of mashed potatoes with gravy, a slice of pork, garlic toast and a little bit of spaghetti.) Today I got back on track with drinking water. Since last Wednesday I haven’t been drinking nearly enough and I have only been having 1 to 2 cups of green tea. Right now I’m on my 3rd cup for the day. I don’t care how bad I crave McDonald’s again I will not resort to going and getting it. I had a weak moment and it’s so bad to me because it goes against everything I was going for with this diet. It’s not about eating the burger or French fries but more about my will power to stay away and not rely on it every day or whenever I can scrape change together. Darn you $1 menu!!! I’m going to talk to Michael about it and tell him no matter how bad I want it to talk me out of it because doing that really set me back. My mood has changed since then and instead of making myself feel better by exercising I was replacing it with fast food like I always used to. At least I’m smart enough to crush it now before I’m too late and have to post a blog about how I am slowly gaining all my weight back. Yah I only gained 1 pound but if I didn’t eat fast food would I have lost a pound instead? I don’t want to be put in this spot again!!!
This morning I had a banana when I got up and then had a lean cuisine for lunch. I am still debating on what I want to have for dinner. I never knew I could have such a love/hate relationship with food. One day I’m not eating enough then the next I’m over-indulging. I need to quit telling myself its ok just because I have lost 60 pounds. I AM NOT there yet. If I look at it this way I still have 106 pounds to lose before I get to my goal weight of 170 and about 40 more pounds to lose before I will have lost my first 100. I am not looking forward to doing what I just did all over again. I don’t even want to think about it. I just need to KEEP ON KEEPING ON. NO REGRETS, NO LOOKING BACK. Sometimes it’s hard though. Some days I feel like I can almost reach the top but today is one of those days when I really realize how far yet I still need to go.
I want to get some apple-cider vinegar. I have been hearing a lot about it helping with losing weight and boosting your metabolism. There is a recipe online that I found where you mix 2 tablespoons of apple-cider vinegar with ¼ tsp baking soda in 1 cup warm water. This one girl online swears by it and said she drinks it before each meal and before bed. I HATE vinegar but I think I could put up with it for this reason. It is also supposed to be really good for your digestive system and stuff. My Mom said they also make pills but I like the idea of having to mix it with 1 cup warm water because they say that’s good to drink water before meals too. I could kill 2 birds with one stone!
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.