I missed posting yesterday. It completely skipped my mind and this morning is when I realized: OK - It is time to GET REAL! I have been slacking and spiraling downwards into my old ways. Today is my turning point and I am going to be going full speed ahead until I reach my goal of losing 100 pounds. I am very close and I will not let myself sabotage it. I had my lemon water first thing and then made some oatmeal for breakfast. I had 1 cup of coffee and am drinking my 1st cup of green tea today. I will get 5 cups in before the day is done. No more fun and games, it's getting real now. No more excuses, no more "talk". I will make myself workout today. I have specific instructions for Michael to make sure I do or else! lol - I am not sure what I will have for lunch or dinner yet. I also just started on my 75oz water jug not too long ago. No more BS'ing myself or anyone. I am re-building up what I have torn down these past couple of weeks. On another note I had a great Birthday on Saturday! Minus my junk food hangover I had that night/next day. I slept over at my Moms on Friday and on Saturday we went out for breakfast. This is where my junk food cheat day started. I had 2 eggs, 3 slices of bacon, hash browns mixed with onion, wheat toast with butter, 2 cups of coffee and some orange juice. After breakfast we then went back to her house and my Dad gave me a card with $20 and she got me a small round Birthday cake and some awesome new clothes & a swimsuit! Now... I have never been one to like cake but for some reason this was the best cake I ever had lol. My parents both had a piece and then I took the rest home and Michael and I finished it off! Michael got me a "MyPillow"!!!! (as pictured) - I was so excited because I have wanted one for a while now. It has a built in cooling effect and I used it for the first time last night and slept like a baby! Later on Michael and I ordered Scott's Pizza for dinner. On the way to pick up the pizzas we stopped at his Dads and his Dad got me a gift :-) After his Dads we went and got the pizzas. I ordered a medium "yooper philly" (which is amazing). It has shredded beef, garlic sauce, onion, mushroom and green pepper on it. I ate all but 1 piece because I had to bring one over to my Mom to try because it was so good. When I went to pick up the pizzas I was bought some of their awesome homemade root beer because it was my Birthday. I have not had pop in a long time so I thought what the heck, it's my Birthday lol. I enjoyed every last drop. After eating our pizzas a couple friends texted me to come over to hang out and they brought me a gift :-) Now if you think my junk food extravaganza ends at pizza... NOPE, later on that night I ate three $1 bags of chips (Cheetos, Sea Salt Kettle Cooked & Cool Ranch Dorito's) AND then I drank 1 can of Pepsi. I felt fine until it was about the time to go to bed. THEN the stomach cramps started. I feel so bad for my body. I got so sick (not puke sick) and it was ONLY because I ate so much junk food. I was up on and off all night until about 3 AM crying. I even drew a hot bath to help with the stomach cramps I was having. I sat in it for about a half hour. ALL because I ate like I used to on my Birthday and paid the price! The mixture of all those foods did not sit well with me. I can't believe that just ONE day of eating like I used to could have rocked the boat that I have on the inside so bad. I have cheated with all of those foods before but one their own (minus the pop). Since I have started my journey, even when I went on vacation I didn't eat as bad as I did on my Birthday. I think my body was in shock. It also didn't help that for the past 2 days I haven't drank green tea, my lemon water, I didn't take my multi-vitamin, I didn't take any apple cider vinegar pills, I didn't blog... nothing!!! Yesterday it literally felt like I was as hung-over as I would have been if I had been out partying all night lol. SO here I am today, motivated and determined as ever! I am ready to KICK SOME BUTT! This week wont know what hit it, lol.
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I woke up and had another bird get into the house through the doggy door! It looked the same as the first one we had fly in a couple months ago but this time it let me hold it and gently carry it outside. I set him down and he flew away. I looked it up online on what kind of bird and see that they are Black-Capped Chickadees. We have to get something figured out with the doggy door/get some outside bird houses! The little guy was so cute. I joked earlier the Chickadees need to start coming in and uniting with the mice and get working on my wedding dress! LOL I missed my lemon water and missed breakfast. I had a frozen meal for lunch with some wheat bread. I am done with my water jug and have had 1 cup of green tea. I just had 2 eggs with a wheat English muffin for dinner. It's my Birthday tomorrow/cheat day! So far I don't have any plans besides ordering pizzas with Michael for dinner and am going to rent a movie. I am sleeping over at my Moms tonight just for the heck of it and will probably have a Birthday breakfast with her :-) FYI: I don't plan to post tomorrow. (To thine ownself be true) <-- One of my rings I started wearing again that my Mom gave me when I was in middle school. Be true to you and happiness with find its way in! I woke up and had my lemon water and a breakfast sandwich. I have had 3 cups of coffee and am done with my water jug. I had a salad with ranch dressing and left over asparagus /onion /mushroom from last night's dinner for lunch. I had a frozen meal for dinner. I have not had any green tea and I still have yet to workout. After being sick I am finding it hard to re-motivate myself to get back into my workout routine. I will get back on track. I always do. I woke up feeling much better! I feel almost back to normal. I had my lemon water first thing and then made myself a breakfast sandwich. I had 3 cups of coffee and did not have any green tea. I need to get back in the habit! I am almost done with my 75oz water jug. I still have yet to work out and I don't think I will anymore today. I also need to get back into the swing of that routine. I missed lunch and had a salad with ranch dressing & a bowl of turkey chili with a few wheat saltine crackers for dinner. (Silver & Me) I woke up sicker than I was yesterday but have been slowing getting better as the day has progressed. I hope I only have a day of this cold crap left! It's so annoying. I had my lemon water first thing and am almost done with my water jug. I have not had any green tea but have had 3 cups of coffee. I had a breakfast sandwich and missed lunch. I had a small salad with a bit of ranch dressing & a bowl of turkey chili with some wheat saltine crackers for dinner. I didn't work out but I shoveled most of my driveway earlier and I'm calling it a day. I am not going to weigh in this week. The next time I plan to weigh in on is Friday the 22nd. The last time I weighed myself I was 91 pounds down. I am going to have my cheat day this week be on Saturday because it's my Birthday! I will be 24. I realized I will be 25 when I get married. I think that's a good age for that. Spring is only 9 days away. I can't wait to get out and start walking/bike riding again! Sorry I haven't been posting. As much as I have tried to prevent it I have had a cold these past couple of days and have been feeling down in the dumps. I have gone a little of the beaten path (more so mentally) & have not been having much to say. I haven't been staying consistent with my routine and am hoping to be over this cold soon so I can get back up and brush myself off again. I have been drinking if not 1 but 2 of my 75oz jugs of water these past couple of days and been having 1 (if any) cups of green tea. I haven't been working out and I know I will probably skip today as well. I have plans (still sick or not) to start back up, full throttle, tomorrow morning. This morning I got up and had my lemon water and made a breakfast sandwich. I had a cup of coffee and am almost done with my water jug. I had a salad for lunch with a pita pizza and am going to be having a bowl of my turkey chili for dinner. I have it cooking on the stove right now and it smells great! There is nothing more satisfying to me when I'm sick than to eat a nice hot spicy bowl of chili. I loaded it with jalapeño so it'll really clear out my sinuses! lol Until tomorrow... I had my lemon water first thing and then made myself a breakfast sandwich. I have been making them with a toasted wheat English muffin, 1 slice of sharp cheddar cheese and 1 scrambled egg I cook in the microwave in a coffee cup with a little bit of water for 1 minute. So easy, so fresh, so good and 250 calories per sandwich! I don't think I'll ever go down the road of freezing them again. This way to me is much easier. I am on my 4th cup of green tea and have a ways to go yet on my water jug. I am going to work out after I post this. For lunch I made fresh green beans with a mix of sausauge, onion and portabella mushroom. It was so good! I will definitely be making it again. I know sausage isn't so diet but in moderation I think its ok. I'm to the point now where I trust myself enough to not over-indulge. I just take what I need and then wrap it back up and put it back in the fridge. The mushrooms were great because they soaked up a lot of the sausage flavor so it almost made it seem like I was eating more sausage than I actually had! The whole meal was about 350 calories. I am not sure what I am going to have for dinner yet. I might make boiled cod again with a baked sweet potato. Last night I had that for dinner and it was very good! It's not even Noon yet (but it will be once I get this posted) and I already have my workout in! You all know that is very rare for me lol. I had my lemon water first thing and then made a breakfast sandwich. I am on my 3rd cup of green tea and have a ways to go yet on my water jug. I am about to make a pita pizza for lunch and am thinking on making some boiled cod with a baked sweet potato for dinner. Michael has had a nasty cold these past few days and I have been feeling a little one coming on myself. I hope it's nothing and my runny nose/sneezes go away. I don't feel anywhere near sick as he is. I KNOW that a big part in me not getting sick is drinking 75oz of water a day along with green tea, lemon water and my apple cider vinegar tablets. They all help! I have not been sick, sick since I have started my journey now that I think of it. (KNOCK ON WOOD!) - I remember when Michael had the flu really bad a couple months ago and I was sure I was going to get it but nope! I have been so happy. Not just because I have lost 91 pounds but by also being positive! Positive thinking in EVERY aspect of your life is the way to go. No matter what it is, I have been flipping every negative thought into a positive one. Sometimes it's hard but you just have to force yourself to do it and move on. Instead of complaining (about anything OR anyone) I force myself to think positively and in doing so there leaves no room for any negative. It can only benefit you AND the people around you. If you can do that, happiness will come. It's so easy to get sucked down the road of self pity and jealousy. It's an ugly road and I have been down it before (who hasn't) and I can honestly say I don't miss it! Once you accept yourself and your life you will begin to see things much, MUCH clearer. One thing I had wrong in the begging was that I thought if I lost weight it would change everything. Like a miracle cure. I mean it has in a way but losing weight doesn't erase all of your problems. The way it has helped me is by letting me see things clearer. It has taken off the blindfold I have been wearing for so long and has helped me see things in a different light. I have been through a lot of self-reflection over these past 10 months and it sure has been a journey but I wouldn't change one bit of it. I feel I am a better person today and I can't wait to see what my future holds! I missed posting yesterday and Saturday. This weekend turned into a cheat weekend. I didn’t work out Friday, Saturday or Sunday. I took it easy and it was nice. Took a break from the internet. I’m starting off this week on a good note and had my lemon water first thing this morning with a breakfast sandwich. I am about to make a pita pizza for lunch and am not sure what I will have for dinner. I still have most of my water jug to go and have had 1 cup of green tea. I plan to get at least 4 cups in today. I plan to do a 30 minute workout before bed. Sorry this is so short but I don’t have much to say! |
My name is Marilyn and I am 27 years old. I have been overweight for most of my life and on May 1st, 2012 I weighed in at 338 pounds. This blog is about my weight-loss journey.
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